Listen mang women need men/dikk more insatiably than we need them/p*ssy. Yes as men we are more thirsty but we can live without having p*ssy (as you're currently doing) and still be happy through other avenues.
Women on the other hand need that constant feeling of love which means always having guys in orbit and which means invariably the p*ssy will be given up in the right circumstances.
Your goal is to find yourself in that position to get the goods. Also remember women are weak and can easily be manipulated in to sex as they give in easily to their carnal desires.
So when you're speaking to them dont be having Monday morning convos about how was your weekend, you have fun etc. Be brazen with it, if she's got a fat ass mention it playfully and when she bites go from there.
fukking depressing reading your posts, read As A Man Thinketh to help with your mental.
Plus i will tell you this, whatever shyt you're going through women have it worse so they will need that dikk and shoulder to bring balance to their miserable lives.
When you realise how much balance you bring to women and see how at ease they're around you, you'll interaction with em will be different.