I’ve accepted it, I been through quite a few sudden deaths to family members. It’s more so the feeling of the universe fukked up and produced the wrong result is something that will never go away. Like something will always be off, and your new normal ain’t the same as the old one.
That’s the fukked up part you will always have to deal with that for life. I still do it to this day with my pops, be sitting there randomly and be like man I can’t believe that shyt really happened and that was 12 years ago
I feel for his oldest cuz I was the same age when it happened to me and the shyt is always just gonna feel like one big ass mistake/glitch in the universe that you never get over, you just learn to deal with it