after talking to my uncle a few minutes ago
He has insomnia too due to Vietnam
I brought up the whole smile debate and we got into a good conversation on that
And it made me realize this is a symptom of a bigger issue
As a kid my mom would take me back to a small town in Arkansas called Gurdon
When I say small I mean one stop light, a Sonic and a Piggly Wiggly(grocery store)small
I vividly remember the gas station on the highway where you could walk to it
Had candy and other treats
All of my cousins and I walked there one day
And the cashier instantly knew who we were
“You Miss Caroline’s kids ain’t you”
Now we all kind of looked at each other on some
Replied yes as we paid
And as we were leaving
“Y’all kids be safe alright”
And in unison we said
“Yes ma’am”
And went on about our day
Looking back on that memory my perception is different on that event with the age I have now
See Gurdon was a segregated town
Sure this was 1988 but it still was segregated like many cities are now
The black community was really real then
You had to go to church and sit in those pews for hours
Then after that
Stand around for another additional hour talking to everybody
Kids had a chance to play while the grownups talked gossip and other shyt
But that was community
So when the neighborhood knew everything about everybody
Yeah as a kid you perceived that as nosey muthafukkas in your business
While the adults used that as not only for a source of protection/communication on what their kids where doing when not around
But it was teaching you life lessons and you didn’t even know it
Emmett Till/George Stinney Jr. are just stories to us
My generation and the ones after never had to live that life of Jim Crow
We’ve never felt that gravitas
That weight and pressure of pure racism
I mean drinking from different water fountains, cleaning white peoples homes, mucus spitting and threats to your life constantly if you looked at a white person like they were short racism
Not discounting what we are living through now
But those stories will infuriate you
I say that to say
Black people constantly communicated with each other because it meant our survival and if we didn’t communicate
That could literally end your life
So when hearing these women say
“We are free now”
I
I knew this fissure could never be fixed
Too many people are comfortable in the Matrix
It’s a lot of bravado/chest puffing for internet likes and bag opportunities
I truly feel people don’t want community
They just want to exist in the realm of them
That’s it
True conversations can’t even be had between the sexes
We all know this and we are just kicking the can down the road
While everybody loads up on our asses and keeps progressing
Yeah it’s very doom and gloom because we are all witnessing the end
In real time
We truly have the power to change it but
If you read this
Thank you to reading pure thoughts at this ungodly hour