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I don't know about you, but personally I've been just unhappy. I wouldn't say depressed. Just really unhappy.

I'm about to be 30 this year and I've still never have had a significant relationship or have had more than $1500 dollars to my name or have made anything close to that in a short period of time. I feel like I'm working and busting my ass for nothing and all my dreams and hopes are fading right before my eyes. Sometimes I feel like I truly have nothing to be optimistic about. Everyone else has an easy life where the simplest tasks for everyone else are nearly impossible for me.

I'm just alone. Even with my friends and aquaintances...alone. Even with all these people around me. Alone.

I've been making up a drought/shortcomings with women by abusing drugs (not alcohol really) drugs (molly and coke) on a weekly basis for a couple of months.

Maybe it's just me being stuck in a rut...and not being motivated...or being beat up by life...or maybe it's this shytty grey cold weather f*cking up my mood. But sometimes, I just feel like giving up. Not to the point of offing myself, but just not wanting to be in this goddamn ratrace anymore. I wish I could dip in and out of existence and life was easy. I wish I was as confident as I looked and felt as great as I knew I could be. I wish people would like me for me and not what I could offer to them. Sometimes I just go out of my way to avoid people cause I know I'll just disappoint them in one way or another.

I give up on people. I say so much good stuff on here, have this blog with thousands of followers, but really no one gives a shyt about me. I'm nobody. and as far as things are going, I'm just a failure at this point. All my peers are successful and shyt...and here I am...doing what? Living like a loser (or I think I'm a loser)...

I can't believe this is my life at times. MAybe it's just me being impatient...but f*ck man I wish shyt was better than this. I don't even want to talk to people other than my friends and associates most days. Nobody gives a shyt about me like that. I accepted it and don't care anymore. I might as well be invisible to most people.

I just want things to get better...my life to get better. I just want to be happy. Successful. Feeling like I'm actually better than where I'm at now. I'm sick and tired of my life being stuck in neutral with the brake on. I just want to know I'm not alone out here....
I think Generation Y (people born 1977-1994) has a sort of overly idealistic view of "how it's supposed to be" thanks to the shyt we grew up watching. Lots of it featured people having all their shyt together and figured out and living it up in their 20s. Carefree and shyt. Reality is most people don't even know wtf we wanna be in life at that age. I'm apparently supposed to feel carefree at 22 but I'm apprehensive as fukk about this post-college transition.
 
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I think Generation Y (people born 1977-1994) has a sort of overly idealistic view of "how it's supposed to be" thanks to the shyt we grew up watching. Lots of it featured people having all their shyt together and figured out and living it up in their 20s. Carefree and shyt. Reality is most people don't even know wtf we wanna be in life at that age. I'm apparently supposed to feel carefree at 22 but I'm apprehensive as fukk about this post-college transition.
I actually just graduated in 2012. I was in school (figuratively) since 2002. I don't feel my age sometimes. And now here I am in this new place, doing my thing and frankly I've just been trying to enjoy myself and take life slow. I've been working a career in insurance...but it's just so much work and informatin and reading and laws and fine print and regulations and fine print...it makes me think, "so this is what it's come down to now?"

It's like whatever...it took me ages to find a job immediately out of college, and now that I got one it's like "is this it?"
 

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I don't know about you, but personally I've been just unhappy. I wouldn't say depressed. Just really unhappy.

I'm about to be 30 this year and I've still never have had a significant relationship or have had more than $1500 dollars to my name or have made anything close to that in a short period of time. I feel like I'm working and busting my ass for nothing and all my dreams and hopes are fading right before my eyes. Sometimes I feel like I truly have nothing to be optimistic about. Everyone else has an easy life where the simplest tasks for everyone else are nearly impossible for me.

I'm just alone. Even with my friends and aquaintances...alone. Even with all these people around me. Alone.

I've been making up a drought/shortcomings with women by abusing drugs (not alcohol really) drugs (molly and coke) on a weekly basis for a couple of months.

Maybe it's just me being stuck in a rut...and not being motivated...or being beat up by life...or maybe it's this shytty grey cold weather f*cking up my mood. But sometimes, I just feel like giving up. Not to the point of offing myself, but just not wanting to be in this goddamn ratrace anymore. I wish I could dip in and out of existence and life was easy. I wish I was as confident as I looked and felt as great as I knew I could be. I wish people would like me for me and not what I could offer to them. Sometimes I just go out of my way to avoid people cause I know I'll just disappoint them in one way or another.

I give up on people. I say so much good stuff on here, have this blog with thousands of followers, but really no one gives a shyt about me. I'm nobody. and as far as things are going, I'm just a failure at this point. All my peers are successful and shyt...and here I am...doing what? Living like a loser (or I think I'm a loser)...

I can't believe this is my life at times. MAybe it's just me being impatient...but f*ck man I wish shyt was better than this. I don't even want to talk to people other than my friends and associates most days. Nobody gives a shyt about me like that. I accepted it and don't care anymore. I might as well be invisible to most people.

I just want things to get better...my life to get better. I just want to be happy. Successful. Feeling like I'm actually better than where I'm at now. I'm sick and tired of my life being stuck in neutral with the brake on. I just want to know I'm not alone out here....
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How come I'm anxious and quite depressive?

Usually at peace for me if an illusion. Typically I'm at peace when I'm escaping something. Like maybe going out with the brehs, smashing a female, a nice blunt, after a workout.

I can't say I'm depressed, as I've been deep deep in depression before. But now it's more like a dark cloud, no sure where to turn in life, how to change my situation. etc. Feels like everyone is moving on in life and having a blast meanwhile I'm just here stuck. Yet even when i'm enjoying the moment, i'm still not fully there....
 

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