I used to get a lot of deja vu experiences and eventually I stopped - afterwards I got dreams that'd line up just a bit differently than what I'd been accustomed to in the deja vu stuff. Felt like I was 'off the rails' in a weird sense.
Then I started having dreams about myself, from the third person. Doing stuff that just didn't quite line up either.
Then it turned into me watching all this stuff play out, trying to ignore it, then the other versions of myself making eye contact, brushing me aside, etc.
For the past few years its been either being brutally killed, watching them cross all sorts of lines with the people I care about, or committing other fukked up acts of violence. And its always made worse because I've felt I've had the capacity for violence in ways that lot of people don't since an early age. Its fukked watching yourself do shyt you said you'd never do. Or getting your teeth kicked into your throat by a version of yourself that thinks you're too soft to be relied on.
So yeah....