Has drugs ever fukked u up permanently (long read)

[stealthbomber]

yeah drugs fukked me up pretty bad..

they opened my eyes to the real world

 

[Dada]

Sounds like you're experiencing Depersonalization and Derealization, which is not unusual for heavy pot smokers (which you said you're not). But then you did say you ingested a lot that time.

 

[Red Omega]

Yeah, I was heavy weed smoker for about two years, loved it, but one time for some reason that shyt gave me a anxiety attack, and then after that started having anxiety issues for a few months after it and anytime i would try to smoke was a full blown anxiety attack.

I took care of the issue by qutting weed and just education on anxiety but if I had never smoked I would have never been introduced to anxiety.

sometimes ill attempt to smoke because those were some good ass times before, but everytime I try it gives me that affect, so its just not worth it. Its def all mental but its something I gotta stay away from.

so now I just drink to for a good time.

 

[bouncy]

I'm not anti-drugs
I don't care who does what
I'm not into it
I've only took a couple of pulls of weed 2 or 3 times
Some don't consider weed a drug but that's besides my point

one day someone made weed brownies
I ate 4 pieces
I didn't know I wasn't suppose to eat that much

It was the worst feeling of my life
Probably the worse day as well
It's kinda hard to describe what I went thru

I really felt like I died
I seen myself traveling thru space
I felt like I had to fight myself to come back
And when I did it was worse

I was in a loop
Everything kept repeating itself
The time never changed

I'd wake up
Look in the living room
Go to the bathroom
Throw up
Look in the mirror
And wake up again
And the process repeated countless times

It was like a combination of the movies inception and source code

Eventually the next day came and I felt slightly better
Time was moving again
No more loops
But I felt like it could come at any second
It lead to anxiety attacks
And I ended up missing 2 weeks of work

I didn't feel like I was me for like a month
It was very weird
I felt like I was just going thru the motions
Almost like the movie click
Or just lookin at life thru 3rd person

Fast forward to today
I get that weird feeling once in a blue but it usually doesnt last more than a day
I question everything, I feel like everything is not real
Watching true life crime shows and nat geo type animal shows fukk with me
That was the only thing I used to watch before besides sports
The scariest part is that sometimes I feel like ima wake up and be in that loop again

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[Hawaiian Punch]

I did acid back in high school that nearly put me over the edge. It was triple dipped catholic blotter, so it was extra potent. It made me feel like I was losing control of reality. It sorta felt like reality was this curtain that enveloped me, that I kept pulling down to keep in place. Every so often during the acid trip the curtain would be ripped right off of me and I would lose sanity.

Thinking back I think the acid removed the filter between my conscious mind and unconscious mind. The lack of a 'filter' overwhelmed my mind with all the information being experienced by my senses. It was scary because I was overwhelmed by this tsunami of external information and I just could not properly process it all. I literally forgot what 'normal' was and could no longer comprehend how to properly process external stimuli. I believe I experienced insanity at its rawest form and it scared me. Even weeks after I felt anxiety at the thought of losing my filter. I even had a few flashbacks. It's been years but even thinking about it puts me on edge.

 

[WhiteDawg3000]

I did acid back in high school that nearly put me over the edge. It was triple dipped catholic blotter, so it was extra potent. It made me feel like I was losing control of reality. It sorta felt like reality was this curtain that enveloped me, that I kept pulling down to keep in place. Every so often during the acid trip the curtain would be ripped right off of me and I would lose sanity.

Thinking back I think the acid removed the filter between my conscious mind and unconscious mind. The lack of a 'filter' overwhelmed my mind with all the information being experienced by my senses. It was scary because I was overwhelmed by this tsunami of external information and I just could not properly process it all. I literally forgot what 'normal' was and could no longer comprehend how to properly process external stimuli. I believe I experienced insanity at its rawest form and it scared me. Even weeks after I felt anxiety at the thought of losing my filter. I even had a few flashbacks. It's been years but even thinking about it puts me on edge.

wow. very interesting description


did you recover?


and BTW have u tried shrooms or DMT... how did you like it/them?

 

[Hawaiian Punch]

wow. very interesting description


did you recover?


and BTW have u tried shrooms or DMT... how did you like it/them?

I recovered but am forever changed by the experience. Im paraphrasing obvious info but the concious mind is just a filter for the enormous amount of information received by all the senses (vision, hearing, smell, taste and touch). It just registers the information which are only considered relevant and important.

The acid I took made me lose that filter. Not being able to comprehend normal is scary because I no longer knew what to process first. Was it the bright colors? The loud sounds? The smells? Where do my eyes look? What specifically do I listen to? The smell? The Internal or external sensations? For a long time it made me lie in bed fearful that the fabric of filtered reality would be ripped from me. It made me question my sanity and the sanity of the world in general. I guess I never really recovered because I still question certain tenets of reality.

I did try mushrooms in college. Good and bad experiences. But that's for another thread. I was curious about dmt but I abstain from it, because I have too much life experiences at this point that may come back to haunt me. I just think certain drugs are better younger, because the more skeletons in your closet the more demons that will manifest from psychadelics.

 

[Slaimon Khan Shah]

We must avoid doing drugs so that we don't burn in hell forever after death. Getting intoxicated is sinfull.

 

[newarkhiphop]

But weed never hurt anybody....

 

[Mowgli]

Marijuana makes people psychotic, which is why so many weed heads are paranoid and delusional.

 

[NYChase718]

bud will stimulate certain things u dont want stimulated inside ur mind. if u cant handle it dont do it

 

[NYChase718]

We must avoid doing drugs so that we don't burn in hell forever after death. Getting intoxicated is sinfull.

this n1gga kills me everytime he posts . he pops up at the most random of times with some knowledge

 

[Slaimon Khan Shah]

this n1gga kill mes everytime he posts . he pops up at the most random of times with some knowledge

Well i appreciate that. Remember that all blessings are from God. It seems like you still have some innocence left in you.

 

[NYChase718]

Well i appreciate that. Remember that all blessings are from God. Its seems like you still have some innocence left in you.

GOD IS THE GREATEST

 

[tru_m.a.c]

Yeah, I was heavy weed smoker for about two years, loved it, but one time for some reason that shyt gave me a anxiety attack, and then after that started having anxiety issues for a few months after it and anytime i would try to smoke was a full blown anxiety attack.

I took care of the issue by qutting weed and just education on anxiety but if I had never smoked I would have never been introduced to anxiety.

sometimes ill attempt to smoke because those were some good ass times before, but everytime I try it gives me that affect, so its just not worth it. Its def all mental but its something I gotta stay away from.

so now I just drink to for a good time.

@jay, dude, listen to @U On Dat Yayo Mayne, seriously

shyt ain't worth it....this is not some shyt that will go away...you've definitely started the anxiety attack cycle

don't "try" anything else...stick with alcohol period. Its sad to say it but your bud days are over

don't listen to nikka who tell you you just had "one bad experience"....dude that shyt will wreck you and you'll start having attacks WITHOUT weed