Dear Diary (The Coli...if yall happened to give a fukk)
Right after I had a bomb ass Football season which I got a trophy. My Mama woke up and told me I ain't have to geaux to school today. Said I can hang with her. So I was like fukk it cool. So she took me out to eat and let me order whatever I wanted and when we got in the we was driving passed our house location, so I asked the bytch..."Where are we geauxing?" She wouldn't tell me. We pull up to business building and I see "Orthopedic Surgeon". I looked at that traitor ass ho like WTF is this? She say she wanted to see why I'm limping. I was like I'm good. I had just met Grambling Recruiter that passing summer and he told me to drop weight and I would get a ride being his FB. They run the tests and shyt come to find out my left femur was 4cm shorter than the right femur. I looked at the doctor and was like so give me a special shoe and a special cleat I'm good. I'm gonna play ball right? The doctor looked at my mother and was like you didn't tell him about this at all right? Im wtf yall whispering bout? I ain't doing this shyt and missing out on my Junior year. fukk that. I grabbed my shyt and limped down the stairs and waited in the car for 2 hrs and the dumb ass hoe wouldn't come out. So I geaux back up to the doctor office and the doc told me that no school would recruit me if I had a short leg. I wanted to wait atleast until I signed the contract for the athletic scholarship. My Mama wasn't trying to hear it. I went back to school and told my Head Coach and he was like do the surgery and come back. I was in a fukking wheelchair for 1 year and half and couldn't play no more. shyt was so bad with the infections, the delays, when the coach seen me again in school in the chair he had to hide his fukking tears.
Anyway I came back my senior year and I couldn't even stand up passed 10 mins without pain and eventually quit. Then I've been having problems since forever. Everything changed in my life from that moment. I stopped trusting my Mama and my relationship with my bytch ass dad deteriorated. I learned to never get hurt cause if I had to depend on anybody it would be fukked up and since then I don't fukk with no one in my family. My Mama even abused me when I was in the wheelchair. Hiding my pain mess and letting geaux 8 hrs without it. When I needed to geaux to the Dr one night cause I had an infection she beat me in my surgical leg. And borch ass father didn't want shyt to do with me since I couldn't play ball no more and making art was out the question.
that people are considering this. one leg fukked up had me struggling to walk for like 18 months damn near.
