Do you feel like losing your virginity changed you for the better or worse?
Do you regret it?
Did the dynamic between you and your first partner change?
1)Changed me for the better. I was so worried that I'd never lose it and I was self conscious that I'd be bad at it my first time and subsequent times afterwards while thinking that I prolly won't ever have it again if I were so lucky once 'cause I'd fukk up so bad. Wasn't no big thing and I quickly learned what I was doing, how I did it and what I had were fine enough.
2) Not at all. Great weight lifted from my shoulders and chest and that first intimate orgasm with a female helped turn me off my chronic masturbating since all I wanted was cheeks now instead of jerking off to depravity. I still masturbated, but at a less frequent pace to what I was used to since it couldn't equal up to an orgasm shared and caused by someone else as opposed to manually by myself. Only regrets I have on this shyt is losing it to that bytch I had my first time with.
3) Not really. I never let her know that I was a virgin although I had told her that I was quite inexperienced and that she was my first steady girlfriend and I had only done it 1 and a half times before. She was a manipulative bytch and I was as a pushover simp so I stayed stuck to the hem of her skirt thinking I'd never get another chick that appeared to like me so much despite all the shyt she put me through, plus I was afraid of losing the one thing I cherished so much in that moment (Sex), especially when she start to wear me down and make it seem like I wasn't shyt in bed but she liked me so she 'kept' me, her words. Eh, thanks to her I grew stronger, I'm just happy as hell I never caved and stayed not loving myself like I did when I was with her.
