Man this dieting thing is really testing my willpower.
At first my biggest enemy was that late night meal. The past two nights I've beaten it. I just go home, shower, brush my teeth, and go straight to bed. Been drinking a lot of water which has made a world of difference. fukked up my morning run cause I went too hard last night. It's ok cause I'm going to work out again tonight. Something is better than nothing right? I'm will wake up tomorrow at 430 to be able to hit the gym early before work at 6:00. Diet is easy cause of all the water I'm drinking, I just drank one those low carb monsters, I know they're terrible, but it was cause I had these cheese tacos here and I'm no going to eat them. The caffeine is going to help me make it till the rest of the day.
Sometimes I got some issues going on that make losing weight so petty and stupid I wonder why I'm even doing it but I have to remind myself I'll have to do it anyway and set the example for my kids. Plus it will improve my chances of getting jobs and all that cause I know people hate fatties.
The next hurdle for me is the weekends and my days off when I always fail. I've had a lot of stops and starts cause of the weekend. At work I can keep myself on a schedule but once I'm home I get distracted and lose focus. Then the drinking, which I stopped for a while but now every weekend I give in to the urges and crave those good feelings. I always justify it by telling myself, at least you're not doing what you used to do. Fortunately, this weekend I don't have any money to spend on fast food or beer so I think I'll be good.
My goal is to get down to 190 by June right now I'm at 265, it's slow process but it took me years to get to this size, thank god I will be able to accomplish my goal in less time.
My motivation song for the week
I keep that on repeat when I'm about to give up in my run.