In an excerpt obtained by
Page Six, Feldman recalls a story Haim, then 14, shared about his experience on the set of
Lucas in 1986, in which "an adult male convinced him that it was perfectly normal for older men and younger boys in the business to have sexual relations, that it was what all the guys do. So they walked off to a secluded area between two trailers ... and Haim allowed himself to be sodomized."
Haim then asked his new friend, "So, I guess we should play around like that, too?" Feldman said he was horrified by Haim's request, adding that Haim's alleged abuser now "walks around, one of the most successful people in the entertainment industry," according to the
New York Daily News.
Like his late friend, Feldman says he was also abused by an older man, his assistant whom he identifies as Ron Crimson, a pseudonym. Crimson introduced the young actor to drugs, Feldman wrote. After taking an array of pills one night, Feldman felt Crimson's hand on his thigh and then Crimson had oral sex with the "petrified" and "revolted" actor.
"I don't know why I couldn't confront Ron, but I was consumed with guilt. I felt like the whole thing was my fault," Feldman wrote. "I desperately wanted him to stop, but I was afraid of losing my friend."
The relationship lasted for years, but Feldman said that for him and Haim, sexual abuse became the pair's twisted norm. At one point in the book, Feldman reflects on a picture from his 15th birthday party, in which he and Haim were surrounded by five pedophiles. "Slowly, over a period of many years," he wrote, "I would begin to realize that many of the people I had surrounded myself with were monsters."
The pair escaped into drugs, an addiction that plagued Haim until he died of pneumonia in 2010. "Corey was raped at the age of 11," Feldman wrote, "and like many, many victims, drug use became an easy, if also tragic, way for him to escape the weight of that shame."
Now sober, Feldman, 42, continues to act and performs with his band Truth Movement, but he warns parents about putting their children into show business because the "number one problem in Hollywood was, and is, and always will be pedophilia."
Corey Feldman Reveals History of Sexual Abuse in New Memoir