Found out 2 months ago my husband been cheating and I'm in the process of "moving on" but this- the bolded- plays through my head every time we apart or when he in the next room with his face glued to the phone.
He feels if we don't talk about it,
the events will gradually fade away.
That's his way of moving on when I'm telling him that's not the case. We HAVE to talk because that shyt did damages & it needs to be fixed. I suggested marriage counseling, he said he'll go but he will not get anything from it. Every time I'm so forgiving to his actions, the way he talks to me even tho he's clearly in the wrong or the way he tries to justify it & blame me for his cheating- I think of the above bolded.
This shyt changed me
I'm paranoid now. I go on our T-Mobile account and start blocking numbers from his call log that I feel are too frequent. I go into his emails. I also found out he had 2 Tagged accounts which I combed through and found some more shyt that went back to when we JUST got married. Days I be sitting here wondering, how the hell am I so forgiving to all of this?
They say your first love is the hardest