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Screwed up... till tha casket drops!!
sounds like you're into it mostly for self defense and not personal enjoyment so just try an mma class breh, i'm sure there's some aspect of it you'll end up liking so you could switch to that later. muay thai/bjj/boxing/wrestling/judo/sambo are all legit, if your gym does full contact sparring and doesn't have too much bullshido you can't really go wrong with any of those.
just for ensuring you and yours' security tho, awareness/de-escalating the situation/the 40 yard dash/concealed carrying are all way better options imo and that's coming from a lifelong martial artist
just for ensuring you and yours' security tho, awareness/de-escalating the situation/the 40 yard dash/concealed carrying are all way better options imo and that's coming from a lifelong martial artist