
And here I always thought it was my dislike for Black women and the way they acted that drove me to uppercrust White girls (I got over it. Disliking Black women, that is).
As a Black man that went to a largely White, upper-crust High School and ran both with Athletes and in largely White social circles in college, what you wrote is the fukking truth. When I think about it for a second, a majority of the White women that I messed around with in those years were exactly as you described them: wealthy and from families that would probably retch with disgust at the notion of having a Black man in the house (in fact, I had a girl basically tell me this about her family. Of course, she was half-Columbian). You could even extend this to girls that want to
identify as White; a girl that I knew that was of Palestinian descent acted like this just because she looked White enough to say that she was and have people believe it. Yet, as soon as we went off to college and I visited a mutual friend of ours at her college, THEN she wanted me. I didn't go to college in the South, but I encountered this all the damn time.
As much as I benefited from it sexually, it's degrading when you think about it. The women that think in the manner that you described yet turn around and fukk Blacks are essentially using us as tools of social aggression against White men. By doing that, it reinforces the racism, sexual or otherwise, perpetrated against us through reinforcing White men's views of White women that have sex with Blacks (by fukking with lessers, it makes them see the woman that perpetrated the act as lessers) and giving White women a rationale for fukking Blacks that allows them to distance themselves from the act mentally and emotionally. We still end up as untouchables in a sexual caste system either way.
I love having sex White women as much as the next man (for instance, I laughed at a Facebook status that stated "SEMESTER'S OVER!!! BLACK GUYS, GRAB YOU A WHITE GIRL," because that's exactly what I did when the semester was over) and I have zero shame about it. But when I think about it in this way, the sexual and racial politics of interracial relationships, specifically my own, get murky and very troubling. Good post.
Oh, and

at the "Underground Railroad" and "I would never sleep with a colored man." Don't believe in it when it's convenient, but believe in it enough to fukk a Black man. fukking people sometimes.