i have hobbies and goals but that's not meaning they are distractions...
If you give your own life meaning, then that meaning ceases to exist when you die. your death is guaranteed, so the meaning you give yourself is essentially worthless, death is simply going to take it away. if death continuously removes meaning over and over again from all humans who ever exist, then the meaning is just arbitrary and useless. it has no value. it doesn't actually mean anything. it doesnt do anything. it's simply an illusion someone tells themselves.