Black people and Mental health.

[vanza]

I stopped. Probably need to get back on but unemployment's a bytch.

Speaking of..... spiraled into even deeper depression when a company rejected to interview me based on me not having enough experience. Beating on myself because I know depression's played a major role in my lack of years of work experience, why I got laid off and me being years behind all my peers in getting out into the workforce while I was in and out of the hospital, too depressed to even function and actively wanting to kill myself.

I've been starting to catch myself in negative self-talk over the past few months. After catching myself this time, I finally understood just how deep my fears went and how much I don't take care of myself and how my fear, shame and self-loathing all feed into other and my fear of self feeds my pain. And that slowly I'm starting to fight against that and that regardless of the setbacks I may have I'm moving forward and some of that negative self-talk is nonsense and irrational. Life happens for a reason.

yeah Im the same way, ur not alone Ive missed so much of life beacuse of this illness and I was too in hospital for depression.


see this one at specially for you as Oprah was told when audition for color purple that she not a real actress/inexperienced.
Amazing what happened, God has a bigger dream, what does he want me to do or not do?

 

[vanza]

I also want to say the username Scott Larock i think he is called that was sad and left this site he said in the big mental health thread, pls contact me, I cant post in there yet so dm me I will listen to you and wont judge you

 

[Coolin']

Does anyone in here take anti-depressants or supplements to help with their depression?

I'm not really depressed but I take 5HTP for anxiety.

 

[BlackStarLine]

My twin sister had another psychotic episode that led to her getting dismissed from another job a in a four month period. shyt is depressing as hell. I have been through the same thing she has but I just had more luck overcoming it.

I really wish there was more medical advances on understanding the brain.

 

[vanza]

I'm not really depressed but I take 5HTP for anxiety.

yeah I have bad anxiety as well but I dont take my meds anymore working out a bit helps sometimes to focus on other things like lifting maybe or use resistance band

 

[vanza]

My twin sister had another psychotic episode that led to her getting dismissed from another job a in a four month period. shyt is depressing as hell. I have been through the same thing she has but I just had more luck overcoming it.

I really wish there was more medical advances on understanding the brain.

hope she is okay, I had similar things happen to me, not with job or bad psychotic episode more like I heard things that were not there for a while and had low thyriod that made that happen I have read so now I take meds for that. Really a shame that in America? im asuming u live one can lose their job over something they cant help, here in western Europe were I live I dont think thats possible beacuse we have the work union that helps us.
I have relatives in USA so I know how hard it is for ppl there and how evil their bosses can be, specially towards muslims after 9/11.

 

[BlackStarLine]

hope she is okay, I had similar things happen to me, not with job or bad psychotic episode more like I heard things that were not there for a while and had low thyriod that made that happen I have read so now I take meds for that. Really a shame that in America? im asuming u live one can lose their job over something they cant help, here in western Europe were I live I dont think thats possible beacuse we have the work union that helps us.
I have relatives in USA so I know how hard it is for ppl there and how evil their bosses can be, specially towards muslims after 9/11.

Thanks for this post. I really appreciate it. She is doing alright. But this seems to be the worst I have seen her. I think she has pure schizophrenia. Her diagnosis was bipolar disorder then schizoaffecive disorder. But she is hella paranoid now. But she has been off her meds for awhile and decomposes mentally when she doesn't take them.

Yes, I am in a the country that considers itself the most developed nation in the world (USA), yet has one of the most severe poverty issues that rivals so-called 3rd world countries. Many of the poor are dealing with mental issues and could be relieved with a semblance of a universal healthcare system. But no, the greed here is so severe that the elites rather live in their own egotistical self delusion than fix a simple problem. I agree she shouldn't lose her job over something she can't control (and was most likely caused by the dysfunctional culture of this country).

What western European country do you live in? It's ridiculous how backwards this country is healthcare wise.

 

[vanza]

Thanks for this post. I really appreciate it. She is doing alright. But this seems to be the worst I have seen her. I think she has pure schizophrenia. Her diagnosis was bipolar disorder then schizoaffecive disorder. But she is hella paranoid now. But she has been off her meds for awhile and decomposes mentally when she doesn't take them.

Yes, I am in a the country that considers itself the most developed nation in the world (USA), yet has one of the most severe poverty issues that rivals so-called 3rd world countries. Many of the poor are dealing with mental issues and could be relieved with a semblance of a universal healthcare system. But no, the greed here is so severe that the elites rather live in their own egotistical self delusion than fix a simple problem. I agree she shouldn't lose her job over something she can't control (and was most likely caused by the dysfunctional culture of this country).

What western European country do you live in? It's ridiculous how backwards this country is healthcare wise.

you are welcome yes I live in Sweden now, its great here for ppl with illness as they help us alot, free therapy and stuff too but its mentally sad for me still, I dont really fit in here with swedish ppl or many other really so, dont really fit in anywhere :/
and yes I agree USA needs to make health care better and better for ill people. I hope your sister gets the help she needs, really I feel for ppl with illness there even if it is a beautiful country in some areas and the diversity of different ethnicity is beautiful to me.

 

[SmoothOperator88]

My twin sister had another psychotic episode that led to her getting dismissed from another job a in a four month period. shyt is depressing as hell. I have been through the same thing she has but I just had more luck overcoming it.

I really wish there was more medical advances on understanding the brain.

Sorry to hear that. Tbh as I'm doing my job search the fear of going through something similar is constantly in the back of my mind. Exactly no one is going to be sympathetic to your own mental health issues if it's harming your work performance. Even if you have a history of satisfactory performance and are trying to work on your issues.

 

[BlackStarLine]

Sorry to hear that. Tbh as I'm doing my job search the fear of going through something similar is constantly in the back of my mind. Exactly no one is going to be sympathetic to your own mental health issues if it's harming your work performance. Even if you have a history of satisfactory performance and are trying to work on your issues.

Yeah like my sister, I struggle mentally too and it does impact my work especially if I am really struggling psychologically. And you're right no one is sympathetic. My supervisor knows what I go through but still gets on me when I struggle with performance. It's really unfortunate because we usually do get through the motions. I just takes some extra time.

 

[Neuromancer]

Anyone wanna,talk or just vent hit me.

 

[vanza]

Anyone wanna,talk or just vent hit me.

sadly nobody listen to me or cares, well this site is just as toxic as twitter sometimes I have now seen. Sad that ppl only think about superficial things that have no substance to it(TLR).
walking in here feels like Ive walked into the twilight zone, I dont see ppl act like this IRL, its just like instagram, twitter and all other toxic social media,sad that ppl dont want to talk spirituality and things on here but meaningless stuff specially TLR.
The hate on LGBT community also and interracial relationships too. Its like st0rmfr0nt to some degree, really sad we need to unite, muslims and christians and other races no matter how hard it is, work together even if we muslims dont really like christian westernized culture sometimes

 

[Neuromancer]

sadly nobody listen to me or cares, well this site is just as toxic as twitter sometimes I have now seen. Sad that ppl only think about superficial things that have no substance to it(TLR).
walking in here feels like Ive walked into the twilight zone, I dont see ppl act like this IRL, its just like instagram, twitter and all other toxic social media,sad that ppl dont want to talk spirituality and things on here but meaningless stuff specially TLR.
The hate on LGBT community also and interracial relationships too. Its like st0rmfr0nt to some degree, really sad we need to unite, muslims and christians and other races no matter how hard it is, work together even if we muslims dont really like christian westernized culture sometimes

While I don't agree with everything you have said, you are welcome to say it here. Maybe the Coli isn't the place for you. Unfortunately it can't be everything we want it to be. The world is toxic, all of these platforms just provide the anonymity to showcase it. Thank you for sharing though.

 

[vanza]

While I don't agree with everything you have said, you are welcome to say it here. Maybe the Coli isn't the place for you. Unfortunately it can't be everything we want it to be. The world is toxic, all of these platforms just provide the anonymity to showcase it. Thank you for sharing though.

yeah thats what I mean, even sites like dailymail for celebrity news has evil comments and racists commenting. makes me scared ppl think those thoughts actually. they are mean to ugly ppl and then when ugly ppl get plastic surgery and or if it goes wrong they trash them and call them fake like kylie jenner (but she looks great now). I kept away from the internet for 2-3 yrs and thats after when I was on tumblr that too was toxic and mean to some ppl I followed because they could ask qs while being anonymous. ppl are mean IRL to, they just dont always say it....
I have a problem with most sites...

 

[Neuromancer]

yeah thats what I mean, even sites like dailymail for celebrity news has evil comments and racists commenting. makes me scared ppl think those thoughts actually. they are mean to ugly ppl and then when ugly ppl get plastic surgery and or if it goes wrong they trash them and call them fake like kylie jenner (but she looks great now). I kept away from the internet for 2-3 yrs and thats after when I was on tumblr that too was toxic and mean to some ppl I followed because they could ask qs while being anonymous. ppl are mean IRL to, they just dont always say it....
I have a problem with most sites...

The internet is where ppl can say what they think without fear of judgement.