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Moved back in with mom and bro(16) ..im 27. My younger brother going through some shyt and I just have no empathy for him at all......like I have emotions and empathy for other people..people who aren't my family but with him I just don't care..like I get angry when he asks me questions. I mean I didn't see him for almost 2 years and didn't really even miss him...I know it sucks and I try to care about him but I just don't...having to because he is my brother feels like a burden to me.

He been diagnose with bipolar, using drugs when I was gone,disrespecting mom and all that. I have my own shyt going on and we never really talked..would take him to the movies,wwe but I never really knew how to be a brother to him or my sister.

Brother was in hospital for a few days and I honestly didn't really care..it was a relief..mom not yelling at him over dumb shyt,him disrespecting her which gets me angry. I mean try to give him advice,and not on no bully shyt either..I get why he is mad at mom..she borderline depressed,maybe bipolar,she tries her best but I can tell she has checked out with him..she highkey antagonizes him,and holds onto all the anger past and present he causes and will snap at him even when he doesn't deserve it. I try to get her to back off but she'll do shyt like egg him on and make fun of his suicidal thoughts (:snoop: ) he is young and has a bunch of anger towards her and they'll eventually just insult and curse each other back and forth. Then I can't let that shyt slide in front of me and I try hard to talk but I end up getting angry and be wanting to kick his ass.

I don't wanna live here but I can't just move away and let him disrespect my mother, and he might eventually snap and hurt my mother because she gets emotional and says and does shyt that can set you the fukk off. I'm older so I can put up with her shyt and refrain from telling her to stfu...she is a good mother but emotionally abusive..she was like this with my younger sister too. Yell and start shyt for no reason, become obsessed and paranoid over little shyt:francis:
 

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Moved back in with mom and bro(16) ..im 27. My younger brother going through some shyt and I just have no empathy for him at all......like I have emotions and empathy for other people..people who aren't my family but with him I just don't care..like I get angry when he asks me questions. I mean I didn't see him for almost 2 years and didn't really even miss him...I know it sucks and I try to care about him but I just don't...having to because he is my brother feels like a burden to me.

He been diagnose with bipolar, using drugs when I was gone,disrespecting mom and all that. I have my own shyt going on and we never really talked..would take him to the movies,wwe but I never really knew how to be a brother to him or my sister.

Brother was in hospital for a few days and I honestly didn't really care..it was a relief..mom not yelling at him over dumb shyt,him disrespecting her which gets me angry. I mean try to give him advice,and not on no bully shyt either..I get why he is mad at mom..she borderline depressed,maybe bipolar,she tries her best but I can tell she has checked out with him..she highkey antagonizes him,and holds onto all the anger past and present he causes and will snap at him even when he doesn't deserve it. I try to get her to back off but she'll do shyt like egg him on and make fun of his suicidal thoughts (:snoop: ) he is young and has a bunch of anger towards her and they'll eventually just insult and curse each other back and forth. Then I can't let that shyt slide in front of me and I try hard to talk but I end up getting angry and be wanting to kick his ass.

I don't wanna live here but I can't just move away and let him disrespect my mother, and he might eventually snap and hurt my mother because she gets emotional and says and does shyt that can set you the fukk off. I'm older so I can put up with her shyt and refrain from telling her to stfu...she is a good mother but emotionally abusive..she was like this with my younger sister too. Yell and start shyt for no reason, become obsessed and paranoid over little shyt:francis:
You should suggest both see some one. Maybe all of you go to a family therapist. There are issues that are not going to go away unless they are addressed bro.
 

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This weekend was kinda not the best for me mentally. Thank God, I see my therapist on Tuesday. :(
 

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Does anyone in here take anti-depressants or supplements to help with their depression?
 

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Does anyone in here take anti-depressants or supplements to help with their depression?

I stopped. Probably need to get back on but unemployment's a bytch.

Speaking of..... spiraled into even deeper depression when a company rejected to interview me based on me not having enough experience. Beating on myself because I know depression's played a major role in my lack of years of work experience, why I got laid off and me being years behind all my peers in getting out into the workforce while I was in and out of the hospital, too depressed to even function and actively wanting to kill myself.

I've been starting to catch myself in negative self-talk over the past few months. After catching myself this time, I finally understood just how deep my fears went and how much I don't take care of myself and how my fear, shame and self-loathing all feed into other and my fear of self feeds my pain. And that slowly I'm starting to fight against that and that regardless of the setbacks I may have. I'm moving forward and some of that negative self-talk is nonsense and irrational. Life happens for a reason.
 
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hey guys Im not black but im gonna post in here because I cant in the mental health thread as I dont have enough messages yet, I hope u dont mind :(
yeah not many ppl in my culture dont get it either and its a taboo to be depressed and have mental illness, I was told to go to an imam(im muslims background from balkan) to pray it away instead of seeing a doctor and I did, my mom gave me things from him to eat and pray, he also told me that I need to pray 5 times a day to heal :/ Ive eaten anti-depressant but they didnt work and also got ECT 10 rounds and therapy but nothing has worked sadly...I was also vegan and things like that...
Lately I have been feeling the presence of Allah/God and I feel I lost him there for a while but hes come back and I hope he doesnt leave me now again :( but still want to cry and really sad and depressed and suicidal :/
 
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Moved back in with mom and bro(16) ..im 27. My younger brother going through some shyt and I just have no empathy for him at all......like I have emotions and empathy for other people..people who aren't my family but with him I just don't care..like I get angry when he asks me questions. I mean I didn't see him for almost 2 years and didn't really even miss him...I know it sucks and I try to care about him but I just don't...having to because he is my brother feels like a burden to me.

He been diagnose with bipolar, using drugs when I was gone,disrespecting mom and all that. I have my own shyt going on and we never really talked..would take him to the movies,wwe but I never really knew how to be a brother to him or my sister.

Brother was in hospital for a few days and I honestly didn't really care..it was a relief..mom not yelling at him over dumb shyt,him disrespecting her which gets me angry. I mean try to give him advice,and not on no bully shyt either..I get why he is mad at mom..she borderline depressed,maybe bipolar,she tries her best but I can tell she has checked out with him..she highkey antagonizes him,and holds onto all the anger past and present he causes and will snap at him even when he doesn't deserve it. I try to get her to back off but she'll do shyt like egg him on and make fun of his suicidal thoughts (:snoop: ) he is young and has a bunch of anger towards her and they'll eventually just insult and curse each other back and forth. Then I can't let that shyt slide in front of me and I try hard to talk but I end up getting angry and be wanting to kick his ass.

I don't wanna live here but I can't just move away and let him disrespect my mother, and he might eventually snap and hurt my mother because she gets emotional and says and does shyt that can set you the fukk off. I'm older so I can put up with her shyt and refrain from telling her to stfu...she is a good mother but emotionally abusive..she was like this with my younger sister too. Yell and start shyt for no reason, become obsessed and paranoid over little shyt:francis:
dont feel bad I moved back home when I was 23-24 and moved out again some years later after that beacuse I was ill and stuff mentally so couldnt really be alone but now im back alone living by myself again, its going to be alright. My brother hasnt spoken to me either for almost 6 months, ignores me :(
 
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