I did that, then like cancer my beliefs have slowly been eaten away.
I started tellin the truth and tellin all the good shyt then slowly but surely I started saying shyt, where I would end up having to take back or clean up later on like "Ay man, I said something the other day about......"
Im sittin in the car like mitch, mad as fukk.
It's hard to explain the truth to these cats especially as they are happening, and they are like "What's goin on in ferguson?" and im trying to digest it all, and im hearing the lies and shyt. The kids know whats going on, Ive done stuff like took a youth to dinner then to a movie (no sandusky), played ball, and other than focusing on what it is that we are doing, sometimes they were like, what you do think about Trayvon? and this and that....I can say the real shyt to them that I would say to my boys because, in a way I want to tell them "fukk everyone you need to do you, always put yourself first, etc etc," yet at the same time they need to understand their place and where they are at now so they can abide by the rules, follow directions and graduate.
Even back when hurricane Katrina happened, and the news showed videos of white people "finding food" and black people "looting" I had to try to explain shyt to young black males, and it's fukked up, it really is..