I just wish I had cut porn out a long time ago. 20 years in and my neural connections are all fukked up. Workin thru it tho. One day at a time.
I was just as deep in as you are. Died off over the years, mines used to be BAD. Not Kirk franklin bad, that nicca was off the deep end. That niccas obsession was only second to Hitler, But my situation was bad enuff. Most days I would run in the house, make sure no one was home, barricade myself in the bedroom (stuff socks, whatever I could to prevent easy entry) drop my jeans and go at it. Few hours a day. That shyt is sick now man, I could NEVER go back to that lifestyle. It takes a while to reboot, maybe some weeks, up to 6 months. I think it took me a month to get over the hump, but I still have work. Porn causes anxiety, insecurities, low self esteem, etc. spend NO time visually stimulating self, and more time caressing a real woman. My libido was GONE for a long time, no erection would stay. I could be harder than a roll of quarters, then my heart would start beating like mad, id start sweating and it would leave. I think a total reboot may take up to a year, or more. Spend as much time with your woman, talk about it. If you have a woman that loves you, she will help you through it. Talking does miracles. Trust me, the cure is leaving that shyt alone. No porn or jack off sessions.