Spliff
Godzilla got busy.
This helps fight off depression, by instilling a feeling that there's still a long to go towards reaching a state of perfection.
Perfection can't be reached. This cycle will continue itself while you try to live up to this imaginary standard. I've been (and still am in some areas of my life) where you're at. Giving up the illusion of perfection has been a liberating and life altering experience.
We may have different ideas of perfection, though. Take it as you will