First of all, stop pretending to be black. No black man would sit here and act like there is any equivalency between a black man using the word crakkka and a white man using the word n*gger.
Even if I meant it with malice and hate, it would have no equivalency because it lacks the power. Black people do not have the power to oppress or make the lives of white people harder or more difficult because of our hatred toward them. White people on the other hand have that power because of the history of slavery, colonialism, and jim crow. Racism = power + prejudice. If we have no power, then our words are meaningless. White people on the other hand still control this country whether its politics, business, the law, etc. They have the power and have continually used it to make life tougher for black folks.
As Louie CK said in this stand-up, white privilege is so great that there isn't even a word you can use to hurt a white man's feelings.
Yea, I call ya'll cacs. But what image does that bring up? Ya'll being slave masters tearing the flesh off black people's backs. How is that denigrating? How is that demeaning? How is that in any way comparable to being enslaved and being considered less than human?