I feel the same way breh. A lot of this I identify with, down to the family members with tattoos and their issues.
I gave up certain things too once I realized blacks were frozen out. I'm not doing no gay shyt to get on either.
The US is done for black people. Yes you can be happy and be the one token but you're always under surveillance and can be killed at any moment just for being "the black one" in one of these white or "multiracial" enclaves. I'd much rather just leave the whole racial hierarchy of America behind.