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Much of my life is described in this video
Much of my life is described in this video
The Struggle of Black Boyhood
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pawdalaw
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My earliest childhood memory was the aftermath of a triple murder. I was just forming words to start talking. When I saw it, I felt a dark cloud that I couldn't describe. I didn't know what death was, but knew what I saw was bad.
My family couldn't connect my behavior to the incident. I went mute for a year.. I don't need to go into detail about how scarring that was, and the warped sense of reality and behaviors to support that reality that I lived for decades with.
I'm still unpacking it and more often than not, that black cloud is gone.
My family couldn't connect my behavior to the incident. I went mute for a year.. I don't need to go into detail about how scarring that was, and the warped sense of reality and behaviors to support that reality that I lived for decades with.
I'm still unpacking it and more often than not, that black cloud is gone.
Dameon Farrow
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Great post. Anybody who read Will Smith's autobiography would get great insight into why he acted the way he did. It's not a justification. It just gives a why.This is a generational trauma thing. I call it the wounded womb because it will hurt the seeds it births, whether it wants to or not. Will was a good example of that:
"In many ways the entire world lives like this because you’ve been told since you were a kid, in ways both brazen and indirect, that you aren’t any good as you are and for acceptance you should be like this.
Why Will Slapped Chris + What it says about You
A man murders another in ancient times. The only witness to the crime is an actor. The courts of the day shake their head and say “Nay, for he is a professional liar and we can’t be cer…willhelp.me
There is the first brick, usually instilled by parents which swiftly chips at your innate “I Am-ness” as it now has to justify its existence whereas before it was never even a question as my radiance is testimony to my alignment as evidenced by my innocence as I’m fully connected to my inner sense. This is the great secret of why children are born shining and become as dim as their parents only to do it all again and why everyone feels like something is missing from their lives that was once present but they can’t quite put their finger on it or say what it is. It’s the Process, as designed by the System. What you think the Game of Souls doesn’t have a vested interest in managing your perceptions and how you think? Why wouldn’t it be? After all it all takes place in your awareness so one divided against Self can never truly rise nor become a threat and thus you’ll spend your life investing in a range of foolish things designed to distract yourself from looking the only place it can begin and end:
The awareness of your awareness."
The rest of the article goes into more detail about this using Will as an example:
"Will didn’t slap Chris because of what he said. He slapped him because of what his Father did and the immense discomfort this brings raging up to the surface causing the mask he’d worked so hard to build to slip, which isn’t surprising because for the few its been open season on Will as the clown prince of cuckness as the whole world has been up in his biz and all the dirt that got dished as the world “entanglement” entered the collective consciousness."
As well as reference why MJ suppressed his masculine in an effort to totally distance himself from Joseph. A lot of men born without a stable male influence will do the flip and go hyper aggressive both as a vent and pastiche of what they think they're missing and rap definitely feeds into this as it pours negative impressions into the urban youths head with abundance which leads to pain, jail, death or addiction.
It is, quite literally, deeper than rap and its all interconnected.
The wounds of childhood weep silently within almost all of the populace and people will go to great lengths to hide this fact from themselves as they invest in a fable that doesn't serve their best interests and often isn't what actually happened. Read the article, if it makes you feel something mention and I'll help. Also check out this thread:
I'll swing back through with a little something something later as I just peeped this thread.
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Not many of us leave our childhood neighborhoods. A lot of times just moving isn't enough when the trauma is so deeply woven within the fabric of your personality. You can workout and get your money up, but that isn't really addressing the issue, is it? Granted, we all process things differently but that to me comes off as putting a bandaid over the gapping wound instead of going to the ER.
I've been thinking maybe therapy is that move. Preferably a black therapist that may be to analyze the problem from a place of familiarity
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+10This is a generational trauma thing. I call it the wounded womb because it will hurt the seeds it births, whether it wants to or not. Will was a good example of that:
"In many ways the entire world lives like this because you’ve been told since you were a kid, in ways both brazen and indirect, that you aren’t any good as you are and for acceptance you should be like this.Why Will Slapped Chris + What it says about You
A man murders another in ancient times. The only witness to the crime is an actor. The courts of the day shake their head and say “Nay, for he is a professional liar and we can’t be cer…
There is the first brick, usually instilled by parents which swiftly chips at your innate “I Am-ness” as it now has to justify its existence whereas before it was never even a question as my radiance is testimony to my alignment as evidenced by my innocence as I’m fully connected to my inner sense. This is the great secret of why children are born shining and become as dim as their parents only to do it all again and why everyone feels like something is missing from their lives that was once present but they can’t quite put their finger on it or say what it is. It’s the Process, as designed by the System. What you think the Game of Souls doesn’t have a vested interest in managing your perceptions and how you think? Why wouldn’t it be? After all it all takes place in your awareness so one divided against Self can never truly rise nor become a threat and thus you’ll spend your life investing in a range of foolish things designed to distract yourself from looking the only place it can begin and end:
The awareness of your awareness."
The rest of the article goes into more detail about this using Will as an example:
"Will didn’t slap Chris because of what he said. He slapped him because of what his Father did and the immense discomfort this brings raging up to the surface causing the mask he’d worked so hard to build to slip, which isn’t surprising because for the few its been open season on Will as the clown prince of cuckness as the whole world has been up in his biz and all the dirt that got dished as the world “entanglement” entered the collective consciousness."
As well as reference why MJ suppressed his masculine in an effort to totally distance himself from Joseph. A lot of men born without a stable male influence will do the flip and go hyper aggressive both as a vent and pastiche of what they think they're missing and rap definitely feeds into this as it pours negative impressions into the urban youths head with abundance which leads to pain, jail, death or addiction.
It is, quite literally, deeper than rap and its all interconnected.
The wounds of childhood weep silently within almost all of the populace and people will go to great lengths to hide this fact from themselves as they invest in a fable that doesn't serve their best interests and often isn't what actually happened. Read the article, if it makes you feel something mention and I'll help. Also check out this thread:
I'll swing back through with a little something something later as I just peeped this thread.
Another celebrity example is Mike Tyson. I think he is the only one that has been open publicly with him dealing with his trauma
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We all received LOVE and encountered nurturing and positive people growing up, too. Those are the ones who helped us get through traumatic events and times.
The point about changing environments can also mean expanding your inner circle of friends and family. Those who bring love, encouragement, and positivity with them.
Those are the people who help you to develop as an adult. If therapy is what will work for you, by all means seek it out. Not the case for everybody. But removing yourself from bad environments, physical or social , is a step in the right direction. Otherwise you think that it's normal, it's not.
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Ones who don’t believe in mental healthWhat kind of family members y'all have
OperationNumbNutts
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Yeeeeears ago Sports Illustrated written an article about black kids being exploited in sports. Also parents pushing them in sports versus other areas. It's sad because countless people are trying to get a job that less than 1% of their peers do.
JP_614
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Poverty and pain will make you insane.
I think the trauma I experienced as a youth pushed me away from the city I grew up in. I had to get away to make something of myself. Truth be told having a father in your life is a blessing. That’s true but he gave me a lot of trauma. Verbal abuse physical. Gave me a lot of anger in life. Still to this day that I have to go to threapy for. I haven’t been back to Columbus Ohio since 2016. Haven’t seen my father since then. Real talk man
I think the trauma I experienced as a youth pushed me away from the city I grew up in. I had to get away to make something of myself. Truth be told having a father in your life is a blessing. That’s true but he gave me a lot of trauma. Verbal abuse physical. Gave me a lot of anger in life. Still to this day that I have to go to threapy for. I haven’t been back to Columbus Ohio since 2016. Haven’t seen my father since then. Real talk man
Knuckles Red
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It can be, but, a bad father can also be a source of trauma. It was for me. To the point where I question if it would have been better for him to not have been there at all. The worst is when that source of trauma questions why you are the way that you are. As if they aren't the reason for it. I can't tell if its genuine ignorance, or passive aggression.
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