The older I get, The more attractive death becomes. Is it really that bad?

[Fani Willis fan]

lol fukk experiencing the advancement of technology and medicine, or watching your kids have kids

depressing ass place

 

[Aphrodite]

I'm more scared of returning back to this life on earth then leaving it

Ditto.

 

[Dont@Me]

Everyday I wake up I'm disappointed. Honestly, I'd rather be dead. I might kill myself when I get this business off the ground. I've accomplished everything I've set out to in my life. I'm bored now. I hate everyone. I hate myself the most. Everybody hates me too. That's fine. That's been the deal since I was born. My own parents didn't want me.

I'm not complaining. I'm just stating the facts. It doesn't make me sad. I feel very little at 26. I'm not afraid of the dark. I was born in the dark. I really do enjoy pain because it reminds me of my life. It reminds I'm alive.

I used to try to kill myself as a little kid. It was like a game. I'd drink poison. Jump off roofs. Stick things in electrical sockets. I tried to drown myself. I work out until I pass out. When I did drugs I used to try to OD. My tolerance for drugs is too high. I'd run out of money before I even got close to dying. I used to fight a lot hoping somebody would kill me.

After a while I just stopped. I still want to die. Life is a fukking joke man. Nobody is real. Nothing is real. Love does not exist. People just want to fukk. All relationships are cheap. Communities are tools used to exclude people.

Trust me no group embraces me. The outcasts do. But we're together because nobody fukks with us. I call us the lost kids. We're just out here. We have no ethnicity. No gender. No sexuality. No homes. No love lost or found.

I'm okay though. I'm one of two actual independent people I know. I turn my phone off for months at a time. Because I really am alone. And that's okay. One day I'll go for a run or bike ride and I'm not coming back.

I'll dig my own grave and listen to my favorite bands as I lay dying, alone, with the only person who's ever accepted me. Which is myself.

I can't wait to die.

damn. reading that made me time travel to how bad i was years ago and it makes me happy that i've found my light and regained my true self.
It's not too late for you, although you may think so. I know it may sound corny and false right now, but this just may be the beginning of your redemption story.
I know it was for me.

 

[Dont@Me]

If i tie you and ya moms up, Cut her head off and have you wacth, Feed you her intestines, cut up enough that its real painful but not deadly, Chop you up slowly and have needles be put inside your eyes....

Point is death can be real bad

that's not death, that's pain . and you're a sick fukk.

 

[Dontay Flaco]

I'm more scared of returning back to this life on earth then leaving it

 

[Black Cobain]

Nah, i'm 18 and I would rather die at 40 than 70, I just don't wanna live risking joint pain and shytty vision all day

 

[Buckeye Fever]

Try bein' married

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

damn. reading that made me time travel to how bad i was years ago and it makes me happy that i've found my light and regained my true self.
It's not too late for you, although you may think so. I know it may sound corny and false right now, but this just may be the beginning of your redemption story.
I know it was for me.

In my life why do I give valuable time to people who don't care if I live or die?

In my life why do I smile at people who I'd much rather kick in the eye?

Two lovers entwined passed me by. Heaven knows I'm miserable now. I was looking for a job, then I found a job. Heaven knows I'm miserable now.

 

[horizon]

You angsty ass teenagers need to log off the internet, go outside, take some sunlight, make some friends, and understand just how precious life is because you "woe is me", fake-depressed, attention whoring fakkits are embarrassing yourselves with your "smart" dumb philosophy

 

[Dont@Me]

In my life why do I give valuable time to people who don't care if I live or die?

In my life why do I smile at people who I'd much rather kick in the eye?

Two lovers entwined passed me by. Heaven knows I'm miserable now. I was looking for a job, then I found a job. Heaven knows I'm miserable now.

aside from the lame shakesperian shyt, you don't have to give valuable time to people who don't care about you...and if you are, then you need to start building a life for yourself where you don't have to. You said you were setting up your own busines? good. you said you did everything you set out to do? i highly doubt it. Maybe you need to set out to do more because there is so much to do on this earth that you probably haven't even thought about. skydiving? playing an instrument at a professional level? building a sick physique? helping less fortunate kids by making a non-profit? fukking a brazilian chick? recording your own music? those are just examples, but i'll let you think about what u wanna do

 

[Black_Panther_JS]

that's not death, that's pain . and you're a sick fukk.

Its death if I end your life while doing in it

 

[SeveroDrgnfli]

aside from the lame shakesperian shyt, you don't have to give valuable time to people who don't care about you...and if you are, then you need to start building a life for yourself where you don't have to. You said you were setting up your own busines? good. you said you did everything you set out to do? i highly doubt it. Maybe you need to set out to do more because there is so much to do on this earth that you probably haven't even thought about. skydiving? playing an instrument at a professional level? building a sick physique? helping less fortunate kids by making a non-profit? fukking a brazilian chick? recording your own music? those are just examples, but i'll let you think about what u wanna do

Naw. I had a vision as a child of my entire life. Trust me. I've accomplished everything I wanted to do. My list is small and practical.

I've recorded a rap album. I've been sky diving. I've built and maintained a sick physique. I've helped under privileged kids and profited.

Tattoos, family, and my next business are the only things I haven't done yet.

Family may not happen. Tattoos are becoming a more realistic goal. I don't think I'll ever be a professional again. I know if I stick with it my seed will sprout.

I miss everything being new and a mystery. Now I know what's on the other end of the rainbow. And I will never sleep again.

Only thing that gets me excited are high risk situations, girls, and competition.

Shakespeare is the shyt brehkowski. Don't diss the god again.

I'll be okay. I promise. I can't die. People need me.

 

[horizon]

For the vast majority of people, life is anything but a vacation.

Man fukk outta here with all that

Straight up, just because you're planning that exit strategy doesn't mean the rest of us have to and you're mentally ill reasoning isn't gonna convince anyone with a healthy mind

 

[Audemar]

Man fukk outta here with all that

Straight up, just because you're planning that exit strategy doesn't mean the rest of us have to and you're mentally ill reasoning isn't gonna convince anyone with a healthy mind

Where did I say people should follow what I have in mind? Go ahead and point that out to me. I have thought about my situation logically for an extended period of time and will pursue what I consider to be the best option.

 

[Prince Mongo]

You angsty ass teenagers need to log off the internet, go outside, take some sunlight, make some friends, and understand just how precious life is because you "woe is me", fake-depressed, attention whoring fakkits are embarrassing yourselves with your "smart" dumb philosophy

So are you more of a man than the people in this thread? Is everyone in this thread your bytch? I don't fukk with nikkas like you. I put this on my life, if you said some shyt like this to me, it'd be my life or yours. On everything I love, I'd try to kill you for being so disrespectful. You sound like a nikka who likes to make fun of people, and I deal with folks like that irl