
I feel like shyt right now..
I got no job skills when I graduate... no decent recommendations from my managers, because I come into work not giving a fukk... Social skills getting worse....
3 weeks ago, I was on some smooth shyt...I quit nicotine and for one week, I still had that momentum... Then I got super fukked up, on my alpha shyt... ready to start a fight... I sleep through the entire next day.... Felt like I was in a trance the next week... Either that was sobriety, depression or both
But I still had tickets for a show... Went on Friday, ate a spacewalk, got drunk, and almost fell asleep at the venue. This bytchass security was about to kick me out... Then I got up and raged... That shyt was a good time... But what I realized is that... It don't matter if Im plugged on nicotine and caffeine all the time... Im dead ass sober... Im doing ill shyt on weekend or Im spending all my time alone... I been getting a lil depressed for like a month now. I also realized I have to be on nicotine, because otherwise Im borderline narcoleptic, even with coffee
fukk it
