Man, life is funny. No matter how positive I am there's always going to be haters. It doesn't matter. I keep to myself nowadays and I still attract people.
Funny thing is I have no opinion about them because I don't care about them. If they died right now I'd feel nothing and life would continue.
I don't waste time claiming to have some understanding of people that are insignificant. I'd rather be clipping my nails or getting a haircut.
I got big planet problems. I don't sweat small planets. The only time I notice a small planet is when it gets stuck in my orbit or speaks my name.
When I balled I went into a private space mentally. That's why I went over 100 games with over 70% pass completion, two missed shots, and two turn overs. I've played for the biggest clubs on the west coast that aren't pro.
I still get offers to try out or coach and I haven't been in that world for years.
Anyway, I'm effective. I used to only go into that zone during games but I live in that zone now. My creations are getting better too. When I first started I'd do anything because I wanted to try shyt. Now that I have professional experience at a high level I have a clearer vision when creating.
I used to do too much all the time. Now I'm quiet, conservative, and focused most of the time. It's been good for me to be able to extend my private space into other arenas.
I found one of my favorite riders is the same height as me, gang! I've been riding for five months and so think I suck. I found out most people quit because they can't learn to the basic tricks. I guess I'm kind of good.
Hahaha, shocker, I'm good at something that requires athleticism and courage. I've been hill bombs lately. God damn, I'm sure I could reach 50mph downhill. I'm sure I've hit 20-25mph.
I gotta get my long board fixed. I've seen hella ugly boards I gotta bring back my beautiful board. Thing is I kept getting fukked up on it so I stopped skating. I get worse injuries riding but I can't stop.
Between creating and riding I'm pretty damn happy. I broke myself down and rebuilt myself. I keep it simple now. Ride, create, work, and exercise.
I've never been happier. I have revelations about my life too and it's helped me continue to move forward.
I think I won too much too earlier. I had everything I wanted in life at 22. I think the universe owed me for fukking me over. It's weird to be really good at shyt and come up short and then let it all go. shyt is just shyt. fukk everything and everybody. Nothing really matters.
Wins dont matter. I don't matter. And that's okay. I don't need to be important I just want to ride and create and ride at a high level because it's exciting.