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So I think I've damn near rejected my super ego

Rebelion and parent issues

My ego is fragile and damn near non existent

Self esteem and depression

And I live and thrive off of my Id

Instincts. I'm a pleasure seeker. Whether that pleasure comes from sex, chemicals or music, I fukks with it :ahh:
 

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My id is out of control
I'm in a book hoarding mania, and I don't want to do anything else except go to libraries and read.

I'm supposed to be looking for a job, but I'm having a hard time trying to do the applications. I don't want to network or socialize or have any obligations. I just want to be left alone so I can read and stay in my fantasy world where I am a good capable person.

I know it's not good for me to avoid my responsibilities. I know how selfish and greedy I sound, and I hate it. But I want to keep on being selfish and greedy. It's too much work to find a job and remake my entire personality into someone who deserves to get hired.

It feels like the more I try to be more productive, the more my id breaks me down. I hate feeling like my mind is a bratty child throwing a tantrum. I want to be a good person who does good things, but I hate the thought of actually doing good things because it's too much work and it's too difficult. I give up too easily.

I can relate to some of this
 

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Job has me fukked up.

I'm trying so hard to get something else so I can leave.

Other than that typical day.
What type of job?

And I feel you on that. I'm glad I'm on the verge of getting this job. :ehh:
But I came back from campus today. At a club. :ehh:
 

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Watching these schoolboy q snapchat compilations kind of makes me want to have a daughter, I kind of want a daughter :jbhmm:

Seems like daughters care more about a father than a son would :patrice: Him and his

daughter have so much fun together


 

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So I think I've damn near rejected my super ego

Rebelion and parent issues

My ego is fragile and damn near non existent

Self esteem and depression

And I live and thrive off of my Id

Instincts. I'm a pleasure seeker. Whether that pleasure comes from sex, chemicals or music, I fukks with it :ahh:
I can relate :wow: :to:

I have no real drive anymore except to make it in a small genre of music and saving up enough money to go around the world and live in excess
 

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I can relate :wow: :to:

I have no real drive anymore except to make it in a small genre of music and saving up enough money to go around the world and live in excess
So I think I've damn near rejected my super ego

Rebelion and parent issues

My ego is fragile and damn near non existent

Self esteem and depression

And I live and thrive off of my Id

Instincts. I'm a pleasure seeker. Whether that pleasure comes from sex, chemicals or music, I fukks with it :ahh:
:hug: I'm just like y'all, I'm on meds and receiving counseling for it though
 

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Seems like daughters care more about a father than a son would :patrice:]
A lot of males aren't really encouraged to be open with their feelings, especially with their dads, I love my dad but growing up he was emotionally distant :ld:

I wouldn't want a daughter because there's too many #HOH and Simp nikkas in real life out there :to:
 
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