It's hard for me to contain my entire personality. I'm naturally optimistic, playful, and sensitive. People like me when I don't over-think how I'm perceived. I had the best day I've had in years tonight. Lol then of course a storm cloud had to come shyt on it.
I think people are intimidated by how charming and charismatic I am when I don't hold back. Just because I'm not being serious doesn't mean I'm not being productive. When I let it fly I use positive energy to be productive.
I haven't calmed out. I've learned to hide my energy through meditation. I went on a run on my lunch break in the rain and everybody thought I was crazy. I'm just different man. Idunno why some people who are rigid can't accept it.
I accept them and I do not want to change them. I think God gave me many gifts and the hardships I manage make me learn to control them better.
I genuinely haven't wanted to assault one all year. I'm successfully learning to forgive and be emotionally honest.
I told somebody they hurt my feelings today. Typically I just get hella mad and it's on. Rather than get angry I explained to them why what they said hurt my feelings. Now we're good.
Four months of meditation has taken me a long way. I don't see myself ever stopping.