im not trying to have knee problems like an old basketball player at 28. my stepgrandfather had health problems. he got skinny as he got old but the bad eating took its toll. he was 89.Being fat is something we can no longer afford to be...
We getting plenty of examples of famous nikkas dying in their 40s due to diabetes and shyt...we don't need them problems.
the thing is being fat has always made me feel skeptical of people. especially women. i had severe self esteem problems. i used to feel like women who liked me were full of shyt. it was like it was hard to believe people had genuine interest in me. hell it still is. its like id get a compliment id be thinking in my head

i just dont want a grave before i exit my 20's. i want to show people that it could be done. i eat a lot of bullshyt. out of boredom or to feel better. but not anymore. i need a better outlet.