Im used to being alone so much that being alone and doing things alone doesnt scare me one bit. Actually prefer to do things alone. However i do wish that i found someone who i liked that liked me back that would challenge that loner or lone wolf side of me to want to be around someone else without feeling uncomfortable or letting my guard down enough to trust them like that with me personally. Ive never been challenged like that. shyts tiring for real. Im just unlucky for real. Maybe im meant to be forever alone.
im handling it well it seems from the outside but Im tired of the loner single life. Honestly i dont even care to be around people too much or want to be around other people for that matter. Im not even going to lie. I dont have it in me at the moment to want to open up or want to add new people in my life at the moment that i already know and proved they were down with me. Dont bother me unless you mean well or have something that i need and want. Dont care about making new "friends". Tired of being let down and disappointed by people that I have a disdain for humans. Saying how i feel from my perspective. fukk everybody else. Not sorry. Nowadays i just want to be around people who understand me enough not to judge me. Other than that leave me alone.
Im used to people leaving out my life and not staying. The remaining people in my life are distant as fukk. As i said, i feel weird about wanting someone in your life but enjoying being alone