Been thinking of ideas on how I can level up more next year. I don’t have my journal rn. Off rip, I think the big things will be consistency, self respect, self control, and discipline. Those are my keys to an excellent life. To the point of self respect, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I’d rather feel like dirt so someone else can feel better, or how I’d hold my tongue, take the high road, or take the L with thoughts that I’m doing the “right thing.” Of course, sometimes the aforementioned is necessary, but all the time? In the midst of me doing the “right thing” a tightness would come in my chest, and inside id feel angry and disappointed in myself. Day after day, I walk around w those same feelings, then it compounds because I did it again….all for what? for who?
Self control/ discipline wise I feel myself improving a lot. Been on the nofap wave for a min n don’t plan on going back. I don’t really think all them benefits are real, but I do think nutting on yourself is disgusting
My focus for next year is mostly monetary and mental. Physically I believe I’m in a good flow. Gym, martial arts, etc I just like being active. Mentally, I want to keep working on and discovering myself. I want to get better at advocating for myself, being my own best friend, finding confidence. Monetarily I just wanna see what I can do. A lot my success will be predicated on taking the risk and standing in it.
going to go gym now merry christmas to all of y’all
it's just a bad habit I got
