Light blue music.
Damn, i hate how when i type a thought provoking post i want other people to fukking see, i accidently click on something and forward the page to some other shyt that i fukking lose my post. I HATE THAT fukkING shyt!!! Its not easy typing on a phone.
But yo....i would retype that shyt but its one of those "in the moment" writings that i cant recapture but this song reminds me of the fun i had driving, traveling and exploring i95 north for no reason on saturdays. shyt was fun. I kept myself entertained from my own company. Even though i was alone, i trusted in myself to have a good time doing what i enjoyed by myself. I know theres people out there who are scared to do shyt like go to the movies by themselves, hike or a hobby that they wait for other people to come around so they can ask them to go along with them for the company and social experience. I get that but time is of the essence. Some things cant wait. Some things can wait. That movie that you want to see in theaters isnt going to be there forever. Sometimes you have to take a L and miss out on something for a reason. We all have choices we can make, thats freedom.
I think tom pettys last words are some real shyt to live by but i have principles and values that i live by. One of the cruelest reality in life is not knowing how much time you have left alive and when you will run out of time. This is why i had to say fukk religion and theism. Killah priest said it best.. "thats the lies of a reverend, why should you die to go to heaven? THE EARTH IS ALREADY IN SPACE." i remember one of the first and last times i went to church which was back in the spring of 1999. This was either right before ridge racer type 4 came out. Had to be after easter. There was a teenager singing some gospel song and it was one of the sorriest, pathetic songs ive ever heard in my life. Dude basically was singing about being miserable and in pain throughout his life and he was waiting to die for his pain to be over when he "sees jesus". I was like "are you listening to yourself?" You had grown adults rooting for that guy that was crying for help talking about "god got you". I was very depressed at that time so i was looking for upliftment but i knew that it wasnt going to be in religion or church. To me, thats a poisonous mentality. A depressed person needs help. Not to be encouraged to live a life in pain waiting to die to "experience heaven". fukk that. Heaven and hell are here on earth. Find what that is for you and stop waiting