I think I have something similar to ASPD.
I have emotions it's just very numb feeling. I realize that not every emotion is harmful it's just which emotions are useful to get what you want.
American society tends to capitalize on alert emotions such as fear, anger, guilt, etc. From a young age, I tried to avoid this dilemma.
The times I was very emotional I didn't feel like myself. I felt disgusted. Now I'm just chill