Forgive me for saying but i fukking hate people because when i see other people or am around other people, they remind me of how fukked i am or how far behind i am with a lot. It also doesnt help that folks try to make me feel like im weird as well or whatever. Now i know why i smoke weed all the time. Tired of feeling emotionally swamped and bottling it up with no way to release it or tell anybody how i feel. I cant even express it. Its a HORRIBLE feeling that i wish on no one.
fukking brain, man. Im used to feeling this emotional rollercoaster for real and its always been like this. Walked the woods and my legs kind of feeling it. Usually when i get like this, i have to go to sleep or lay or sit somewhere. When im walking the woods or doing shyt by myself, its a fukk you to the world that outcasted me on some different shyt. fukk it, ill be that. I actually want to go to toronto again on some solo road trip shyt in this year maybe.
And fukk YOU if you dont get it. Im tired of everybody always having a fukking opinion about me. I wish i could punch one of these neurotypical people in the face just for living.