Off to work... tired of this cold and ice already. I saw it's gonna be 48 degrees Monday... soon we'll be warming up... Gotta find a new job in the meantime... Done with this amazon shyt
Although we've been broken up now for almost four months (she called it off on Halloween day... i cried in my costume at a relatives party later that evening).
The holidays, particular Christmas was rough for your boy. The worst breakup in my life occurred in one of the strangest years of my life (along with the rest of the world). I was borderline suicidal; so distraught and heartbroken and with no where to turn and not wanting to share my feelings/emotions with anyone... i was going to implode.
But luckily, one person who has been there since day one, was very kind and compassionate towards me through this whole ordeal. Who woulda thunk... it would be the man who put me here on this here Earf, the same man who raised me with an iron fist and nil ever showed any affection or nurturing spirit... my dad.
Any who... to this day, i always think about my ex heavily. At one point, i was going to buy a plane ticket to surprise her on Valentines weekend (last week) while at law school in AZ... but decided against it because i didn't want to be creepy/considered my better judgement because it would be ill advised to so.
Some how, being nostalgic and pondering her more now than ever before, i did something totally ridiculous and not going to help me heal from my hurt.
I put a picture of us as my phone screen saver earlier this week.
What i'm about to say you probably have a hunch of where i'm going with this and what i'm getting at... but it was a total coincidence that took me back by surprise.
You see... since breakup, she blocked my number. I tried to wish her happy thanksgiving, xmas and new years... the send receipts never went out... but i knew for certain when i called at the end of December and it went straight to voicemail. So i gave up. And just continued my plight to persistent pain and agony.
Lo an fukkin' behold, the same week i resurrect our photo on my phone....
She reaches out to me via email tonight. I haven't had the nerve or audacity to read it yet... but the title read...
"Was i rude to you?"
Uhhh... the day after i sent her a care package with all the trinkets and fixins, along with money and gift cards... she broke up with me a couple days later... man i fukkin' loved that woman but she ripped my heart to so many shreds... you'd think it was a puzzle that could never be assembled. Impossible.
Now i don't know what to do. I love her. But she's such a difficult person and lacks sensibility... but i love her because... she's everything i wanted in a woman but i won't get back with her if she doesn't compromise and act a wee bit more grateful and reasonable with my feelings and resources/what i'm able to give her.
You guys know that thread from last week about guys stating the three traits they want most out of a woman? My list was tailored after what i wanted from her. Specifically.
If we get back together... it's on my terms. Strictly.
If not... i'd rather die alone.
@shutterguy Just in case you wanted an update, I got my elliptical yesterday. I ended up with a Sole E25 and luckily it was in stock at a dikk's sporting goods not far from me, so I was able to pick it up same day. Same price that the website was offering, but I definitely saved money on delivery.
Although we've been broken up now for almost four months (she called it off on Halloween day... i cried in my costume at a relatives party later that evening).
The holidays, particular Christmas was rough for your boy. The worst breakup in my life occurred in one of the strangest years of my life (along with the rest of the world). I was borderline suicidal; so distraught and heartbroken and with no where to turn and not wanting to share my feelings/emotions with anyone... i was going to implode.
But luckily, one person who has been there since day one, was very kind and compassionate towards me through this whole ordeal. Who woulda thunk... it would be the man who put me here on this here Earf, the same man who raised me with an iron fist and nil ever showed any affection or nurturing spirit... my dad.
Any who... to this day, i always think about my ex heavily. At one point, i was going to buy a plane ticket to surprise her on Valentines weekend (last week) while at law school in AZ... but decided against it because i didn't want to be creepy/considered my better judgement because it would be ill advised to so.
Some how, being nostalgic and pondering her more now than ever before, i did something totally ridiculous and not going to help me heal from my hurt.
I put a picture of us as my phone screen saver earlier this week.
What i'm about to say you probably have a hunch of where i'm going with this and what i'm getting at... but it was a total coincidence that took me back by surprise.
You see... since breakup, she blocked my number. I tried to wish her happy thanksgiving, xmas and new years... the send receipts never went out... but i knew for certain when i called at the end of December and it went straight to voicemail. So i gave up. And just continued my plight to persistent pain and agony.
Lo an fukkin' behold, the same week i resurrect our photo on my phone....
She reaches out to me via email tonight. I haven't had the nerve or audacity to read it yet... but the title read...
"Was i rude to you?"
Uhhh... the day after i sent her a care package with all the trinkets and fixins, along with money and gift cards... she broke up with me a couple days later... man i fukkin' loved that woman but she ripped my heart to so many shreds... you'd think it was a puzzle that could never be assembled. Impossible.
Now i don't know what to do. I love her. But she's such a difficult person and lacks sensibility... but i love her because... she's everything i wanted in a woman but i won't get back with her if she doesn't compromise and act a wee bit more grateful and reasonable with my feelings and resources/what i'm able to give her.
You guys know that thread from last week about guys stating the three traits they want most out of a woman? My list was tailored after what i wanted from her. Specifically.
If we get back together... it's on my terms. Strictly.
If not... i'd rather die alone.
Although we've been broken up now for almost four months (she called it off on Halloween day... i cried in my costume at a relatives party later that evening).
The holidays, particular Christmas was rough for your boy. The worst breakup in my life occurred in one of the strangest years of my life (along with the rest of the world). I was borderline suicidal; so distraught and heartbroken and with no where to turn and not wanting to share my feelings/emotions with anyone... i was going to implode.
But luckily, one person who has been there since day one, was very kind and compassionate towards me through this whole ordeal. Who woulda thunk... it would be the man who put me here on this here Earf, the same man who raised me with an iron fist and nil ever showed any affection or nurturing spirit... my dad.
Any who... to this day, i always think about my ex heavily. At one point, i was going to buy a plane ticket to surprise her on Valentines weekend (last week) while at law school in AZ... but decided against it because i didn't want to be creepy/considered my better judgement because it would be ill advised to so.
Some how, being nostalgic and pondering her more now than ever before, i did something totally ridiculous and not going to help me heal from my hurt.
I put a picture of us as my phone screen saver earlier this week.
What i'm about to say you probably have a hunch of where i'm going with this and what i'm getting at... but it was a total coincidence that took me back by surprise.
You see... since breakup, she blocked my number. I tried to wish her happy thanksgiving, xmas and new years... the send receipts never went out... but i knew for certain when i called at the end of December and it went straight to voicemail. So i gave up. And just continued my plight to persistent pain and agony.
Lo an fukkin' behold, the same week i resurrect our photo on my phone....
She reaches out to me via email tonight. I haven't had the nerve or audacity to read it yet... but the title read...
"Was i rude to you?"
Uhhh... the day after i sent her a care package with all the trinkets and fixins, along with money and gift cards... she broke up with me a couple days later... man i fukkin' loved that woman but she ripped my heart to so many shreds... you'd think it was a puzzle that could never be assembled. Impossible.
Now i don't know what to do. I love her. But she's such a difficult person and lacks sensibility... but i love her because... she's everything i wanted in a woman but i won't get back with her if she doesn't compromise and act a wee bit more grateful and reasonable with my feelings and resources/what i'm able to give her.
You guys know that thread from last week about guys stating the three traits they want most out of a woman? My list was tailored after what i wanted from her. Specifically.
If we get back together... it's on my terms. Strictly.
If not... i'd rather die alone.
Although we've been broken up now for almost four months (she called it off on Halloween day... i cried in my costume at a relatives party later that evening).
The holidays, particular Christmas was rough for your boy. The worst breakup in my life occurred in one of the strangest years of my life (along with the rest of the world). I was borderline suicidal; so distraught and heartbroken and with no where to turn and not wanting to share my feelings/emotions with anyone... i was going to implode.
But luckily, one person who has been there since day one, was very kind and compassionate towards me through this whole ordeal. Who woulda thunk... it would be the man who put me here on this here Earf, the same man who raised me with an iron fist and nil ever showed any affection or nurturing spirit... my dad.
Any who... to this day, i always think about my ex heavily. At one point, i was going to buy a plane ticket to surprise her on Valentines weekend (last week) while at law school in AZ... but decided against it because i didn't want to be creepy/considered my better judgement because it would be ill advised to so.
Some how, being nostalgic and pondering her more now than ever before, i did something totally ridiculous and not going to help me heal from my hurt.
I put a picture of us as my phone screen saver earlier this week.
What i'm about to say you probably have a hunch of where i'm going with this and what i'm getting at... but it was a total coincidence that took me back by surprise.
You see... since breakup, she blocked my number. I tried to wish her happy thanksgiving, xmas and new years... the send receipts never went out... but i knew for certain when i called at the end of December and it went straight to voicemail. So i gave up. And just continued my plight to persistent pain and agony.
Lo an fukkin' behold, the same week i resurrect our photo on my phone....
She reaches out to me via email tonight. I haven't had the nerve or audacity to read it yet... but the title read...
"Was i rude to you?"
Uhhh... the day after i sent her a care package with all the trinkets and fixins, along with money and gift cards... she broke up with me a couple days later... man i fukkin' loved that woman but she ripped my heart to so many shreds... you'd think it was a puzzle that could never be assembled. Impossible.
Now i don't know what to do. I love her. But she's such a difficult person and lacks sensibility... but i love her because... she's everything i wanted in a woman but i won't get back with her if she doesn't compromise and act a wee bit more grateful and reasonable with my feelings and resources/what i'm able to give her.
You guys know that thread from last week about guys stating the three traits they want most out of a woman? My list was tailored after what i wanted from her. Specifically.
If we get back together... it's on my terms. Strictly.
If not... i'd rather die alone.