Scrolling through my news feed, I run across a picture of a guy I used to be “involved” with in my early 20’s. I was knowingly his side chick for like 6 months but it felt so much longer. I can’t believe how naive I was. I believed all the cliches.
“I don’t love her I’m just with her until......”
“She’s cheating on me too and she shows me no affection.”
“I want to be with you. Once I get my shyt together and leave her, we’re going to officially do this.”
Even now, almost 10 years later, I feel stupid. I had to deal with phone calls, set ups, and stalking from his girlfriend/wife (I never found out if they were truly married or not. He said they weren’t.)
nikka had me all in my feels. Crying myself to sleep at night and wondering why I wasn’t good enough. Being that I’ve also been on the other side, I felt worse (after the fact) for what he put her through.
He was definitely one of the people who helped me develop my trust issues. If I even feel like I’m being played all my defenses are up.
And I’ll be damned if I’m anyone’s second ANYTHING.
It looks like the two of them are still together. I hope he’s doing right by her now.