something just clicked in my head. I need to practice better self respect.
I can't keep letting emotions override the person I was raised to be. I know how to carry myself and I need to stick to that, creating shyt in you're head an running with it is not what men do.
I have to hold myself to a higher standard in how I handle myself in tough moments.
I won't disrespect myself again because it only leads to negative feelings and thoughts.
When you respect yourself you won't feel insecure and fill the need to lash out in emotions.
I also have to stop being a quitter. I need to learn be patient when things don't go my way when I want it too. That's a hard thing for me to kick because I go after what I want and the world isn't like that all the time.
I don't get what I want on my time and that can cause me to feel away, but that is where self respect comes from. I shouldn't feel less than or used because the decisions of others.
I mean a lot of so called friends are only there for a season and I have to respect myself that I know all things come to a end and it isnt a reflection on me
But I guess a human part of me wishes it could have been different.
But I guess this is all growth. I learned a lot of things from past experiences and I guess I gotta keep gaining that knowledge
I'm so happy I learned what a good woman was and it took time. I figured out what I liked and didn't like. I don't even think about past situations because I now know it was beneath me and I wish I never even wasted the time but I guess i had to learn good from bad.
I also realize that I don't talk negatively about people to others but for some people gossiping about others is an ego boost for their small minds. I don't have to demonize others or hurt them to make myself feel good.
You never will hear about me talking behind other peoples backs and being messy in other people's affairs.
I have my weak moments but im def pure of hurt and have good character. Once I learn to not get worked up over shyt that I care about, my weak moments will disappear
I'm good within myself and I don't have to explain or prove it anymore. I won't fold against the odds any longer and i'm gonna try my hardest to control how I feel. It's what I think that's the problem.