I really don't understand the point of all that last night? Why come find me? Why force me to apologize? Should just let me be, y'all don't fukk with me so why you tryna make me be contrite?
Just let it be dead then. I'm good either way. I won't fall apart if I lose friends. I been losing them since I was 17 ...
Like I don't get that shyt y'all just wanted to harass me? For what? Nobody is gonna do anything to me so why put me on the spot. Nobody wanted to get violent about it when I offered.
It's like this I was dead wrong and I fukked up but bullying me about isn't gonna get the best results. I can't help that sometimes I'm willing to jump off a cliff and y'all know that about me.
If you gonna hate me then hate but don't try to make me suffer for things I struggle with when I've done way more good than bad.
Like I said before the people who gonna fukk with me gonna forgive me for my weaknesses and flaws. If you can't do that I guess you don't fukk with me.
Just give me my space to operate around the people who wanna interact with me because I'm gonna flash out if i'm met with constant harassment. That isn't a threat. That's just how I'm wired sometimes.
I get emotional and I lose reason.
I said my apologizes I meant them sincerely. However I gotta be allowed to roam in spaces without being followed
like a lot of y'all wouldn't even go in your pocket to help another one of y'all but I have done that many times and I never asked for it back or anything in return. But I guess stuff like that don't matter.
However I was greatly wrong and people are allowed there emotions. I can't tell people how hard to hit back when I did so much wrong to them and caused them hurt.
Smh I don't know what to do. I go between so many emotions towards the situation. I can't undo what I did and I can't take back my words.
Only thing I can do is offer my actions in healing for my actions
smh idk. I just dk.
I can't take it back and it will never be the same so might as well close this chapter
Just know Im willing to do restitution for my actions