My dad planted this seed when I was a kid.
One day we were all said "Dad you a lame"
He said "False. I was cool, but only for about 2 years"
That statement stuck with me in the worst way. I always felt like nothing would last. If I was killing it with music.... I was in a zone, and that zone never lasted more then 2 weeks.
There will be times where I think I lost my spark as a producer. I always get it back.
Last year I got a lot of p*ssy. I stopped getting matches on Tinder. Now Im thinking "my days of female success are over. Find a girlfriend or think about your career."
Im done with the scraps. Its all or nothing. If Im a hip hop producer... I'm a hip hop producer every motherfukking day.
different seasons send me different signals and Im tired of this shyt. Im a musician. Im a scriptwriter. Im attractive. Im unattractive. I cant do this anymore.