tonight's episode of NOVA about organ transplants
the scene with them telling the family that guy in the coma was brain dead and they recommended for them pull the plug.
seeing that reaction.
nothing worse than hearing that news.
that shock, that pain of loss, that grief. i hate hospitals for that reason. seeing people helpless on some "fix me" shyt knowing that they aren't in control. ya'll know that helpless look like it's out of my hands look and might be out the doctors hands look which make folks really question their mortality and existence itself. it's real, guys. knowing death is the fate where it's a given we all will have to deal with that personally at some point. you see how strong or weak someone facing their own demise knowing that in a minute or two, they will be dead. i have a picture of my grandmother on her death bed and she was well aware that she was going to die. you can see it on her face. she passed about 20 minutes after the photo was taken. she was a strong woman and i know she was ready to go. she wasn't scared. i wish i could have said my goodbye though but she knows i loved her and always will. i hope that i inherited her fearlessness towards death where i'm not crying or scared to death when i die.