I just feel like my life is worthless and pointless. I'm just existing to exist. I don't even want to say that but that's honestly how I feel right now. I don't know why I'm alive or why I'm here. Not like anybody is dependent upon me or anything. I honestly don't think certain people care about me as much as I care about them so
. I'm used to being alone to the point where I feel weird when I have company or people talking to me.
I don't want to die either so suicide or death is far from my mind. Gonna die anyway so why rush. Certainly wouldn't want the attention or for people who don't care about me to pretend for 5 minutes like they give a fukk, fake grieving and whatever when im no longer around. I don't want people to pretend like they care about me when they don't.