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A lot of times I just isolate myself from others and stay quiet because my inner state is a mess and im trying to hide it from everyone because i cant to myself. I don't want other people to know or see me going through this. I wish that I could open up about it to someone else but I feel that I'll be misunderstood. So much to say but no one to say them to. I'm acting tougher than I really am.

I wish someone knew what was going on and could pull me aside and just hug me and tell me everything is okay. It would help.
 
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Good night folks!
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I live the life of a celebrity
A made nikka, way bigger than them other cats you love to see
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I'm not a perfect person. I'm inherently flawed. I'm contradictory, indecisive, impulsive and a well of emotions. I'm heavily flawed. But 1 thing I've always pride myself on was my character. I've always tried to be righteous as a person, but life is leaving me disillusioned.

Deep inside me I feel hope even when I don't see any thing to have hope about. What's this thing inside that keeps me going? Why do I have constant hope for a better life than the 1 I see before my eyes. Things bother me so deep. I don't think people even understand how sensitive to the world I am. I remember a man said when your born in suffering it either makes you good or bad. It's so true, everyday I'm overwhelmed by all the bad I see. I don't want to see it anymore

I've had people change on me. I've had people laugh at me. Call me names and a myriad of other flaw shyt. I can't even lie ever betrayal hurt me profoundly. I've shed many a tear for people

I remember when I didn't even have a friend to lean on. Even now I feel a pain in my chest over my real life since the playground homie changed on me. It taught me fukk a friend because even a nikka you shared so much with can change on you. I can't even look him in the eyes no more as a man.

I don't know where this crazy road taking me but I hope it's to a better place. I'm tired of feeling fukked up and I'm tired of feeling bad.
A nikka got so much potential and intelligence. But why can't I figure out this recipe? A nikka wanna win in the worse way. I want all this pain and unhappiness to have a meaning. I want to wake up 1 day and say look what I did for myself. I want to say I overcame the pitfalls of life. I want to say that I've left a mark on the world in a positive way. I just need a opportunity to show what I can do. A simple chance. Cause I'm tired of living average cause I feel like a king. The hunger and drive I have is killing me. The ambition and hope is killing me. It's hard getting up everyday with a smile and working towards a goal that you have no idea how to achieve. I'm chasing something that I don't even know how to achieve.

I know the good ones only die mostly over bullshyt. But when I die I want to be able to die in peace knowing my life had meaning and purpose. That I've helped people and spread a little love.

I type this in all sincerity. If you've ever been kind to me. Even in the smallest sense. I love you for that and it meant the world to me. Cause I've seen the worst sides of people for a long time.


Just praying that i achieve what I'm looking for what ever that maybe and I need to get my act together. I have no time to be lazy or unfocused. Cause this won't change until I change it but a little guidance and motivation would help me so much, need direction. Show me the way so I can chase it .Chasing a dream alone is for the birds. Please let a young nikka win.



Only a few people understand what it's like to feel you we're born to be great.
 
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