Is anybody real anymore? can you trust no one? like it's just so odd to me like years ago I made rules and I try my utmost to follow them, never talk about anyone behind their backs if you say it than you say it to them, never lie(this is the hardest to follow, but for the most part I'm a truthful cat unless I believe it will hurt someones feelings) if I have a conversation with someone I like to think that conversation is between me and that particular person and it isn't being stored on a hard drive or recorded over the phone for later use if we have a slight disagreement. What ever happen to just telling people upfront how you feel about them and going separate ways? does everything have to be a show? is everything a performance for the viewing pleasure of an audience you don't know?
If we constantly keep going down this road who will you really be able to trust? you can say family but the same petty type of situation goes on in families to an extent it's just more hidden because of blood relations so it boils and boils until that one family event where it all spills out.
I'm the type of person if you aren't directly in my immediate location your out of my thought process entirely, literally the only time someone is on my mind is if I'm speaking to them at the moment or if their sick and I want them to get well;after the conversation ends I go about my day because I got to much on my plate to hold negative emotions towards other individuals unless you are directly harming me in someway.
life is full of battles they'll continue until you die and we don't know what comes after death, if you don't have to battle and the battle is something you've created in your own mind maybe rethink that situation and come to a healthy conclusion that this isn't a battle that needs to be fought. having a voice be heard is important but if the audience isn't worth voicing the message you just wasted your voice.
Stop holding onto those negative emotions, whether it be online or in real life, let that negativity go it isn't healthy if you don't vibe with someone either create space or express those emotions to them in a setting which is conducive to a productive conversation. At this point in my life I don't even hate my worst enemy, I wish them well and hope that the feelings they have towards me can be worked out so that they can move forward.
I can't tell you how to move out here but i would say it's your life so focus on things for you, things that can improve your life and make it fulfilling, cut out all negative aspects if possible and if that thing that's negative isn't easily removed find ways to reduce the negative outcome it has on you.
All this to say if people treated each other better we'd all be better off, just doing your next interaction be the best version of you maybe you can inspire the next person.
tl;dr
discovery stage . . .infinite possibilities . . . returning to self
I am multilayered, I am flawed, I am perfected, I am a creation of imagination, I am the existence of pre-existence, in my death I will know life and life will know me, my sins are my virtues.
