My old life is catching up to me. I'm making so much noise in this city they found me. I guess I'm done running away. I'm going to link up with my old soccer team and this girl I used to fukk with. LOL I have been having the craziest dreams about her. I'm typically attracted to one girl at a time. Which is ironic because my ADHD makes it hard to focus on one thing, but I can always focus on one girl. I've been having hella dream lately about people. Vivid dreams. They feel like memories. I have conversations with these people in my dreams.
They're random people too, not old friends, they're just people I met. I cannot stop dreaming about this girl. So I found her, it wasn't easy but I found her. I found all of them TBH. I don't know why, but I have to talk to these people, so am I. I can tell she feels awkward about it, she's searching, wondering what I want from her. I don't know, I just know I have to talk to her.
I linked up with my old soccer team. I've been avoiding everyone from past life for years. I was so embarrassed, I went from being that nikka to being normal. I couldn't even look the team in the eyes. I was the captain, I can't let my boys down, and I couldn't let them see me as anything less than what they knew to be. Which was a silk wearing, Benz driving, bad bytch dating, champagne popping, unemployed rich nikka.
Walking away from my business was life changing man. Luckily I was young enough to rebuild, shyt I'm still young. LOL. I've already accomplished what most old people want and I ain't even 30 yet. It's kind of funny but also hella sad. I'm ready to see my my team again. I'm a very different person and I hope we all get along still. Got a lot of love for them boys. We did some incredible shyt as a team. We never lost a fukking game. Rarely practiced, and we partied tough, super tough, lol.
People who haven't succeeded in life will never understand me. Until you get that first win you'll never understand me. I'm on a different type of time. I'm a dream accomplisher. I don't go with the flow, I am the flow, I plan things for years before rolling out.
I view things differently. Most people just want to make a lot of money. To me that's the easiest part of the game. Money is fukking everywhere it's not hard to make. I'm trying to create a way and a kingdom. Money can't buy that. I have to build it every day. I've built two already, the final one must survive.
I couldn't imagine waking up and not being able to make the moves I want. I see posters on here who complain about not being able to make moves, well it's because they haven't built resources they need to make that move. I keep trying to tell people life is about resources, but they don't hear me, and they're constantly complaining about their station in life. If you want to make moves in the world you need resources. And if you're serious you're acquiring resources every day. You can't take a day off.
Anybody winning doesn't believe in vacation. The idea of vacation is a sin I think. When you don't have moves to make don't move, that's a vacation. If you have a move to make go hard with it.