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My father is exactly who I strive not to be. I don't get how anyone could live this long and still be completely dependent on other people, willfully ignorant and not want anything for themselves. Dude literally sits at home and watches msnbc all day. Dude has never been outside the country. He had a passport that he let expire. Only thing he does is goes to work and sits in the same chair that has fallen apart. I've never seen him read a book ever. He doesn't even want to travel except to the same two spots. How fukking depressing. He claims to know so much but doesn't even try to make money for himself, be a businessman, at least enjoy life and shyt. He just pays lottery tickets hoping that he gets lucky one day. He wants someone to do everything for him and yet he has some skills that he never uses to own his own shyt. He talks about a lot of what he plans on doing or buying but never does it. My mom is the exact opposite. In fact, she's the one that raised me basically because my father was very passive. I just get very angry and drained being around him where I try to avoid him as much as possible. I don't hate him but am extremely disappointed in him. I love my father where I don't get why he gave up.

And I don't even want to get onto his views of the world either. He believes everything that msnbc and he acts like he knows a lot of shyt. It's just extremely negative.

So that's one of the reasons why I'm a bit angry and hard on myself as well as my mother who is still married to him. I pretty much am trying at least but then again, sometimes I fall short of the mark. Next step is moving out of here. Just saving my money and doing anything to escape.
 
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