It hit me that I've had two sets of parents decide they wanted me and then didn't want me. People wonder why I'm so distant. Imagine being born, I didn't choose this shyt. I didn't choose my parents. I had no say in being alive. Those two cock suckers decided to make and keep me. They then decided to be scum bags on their own and my existence was cramping their style.
This bytch decides she wants kids. Pays for them and travels the state kid shopping. She test drives hella kids and decides on the buy one get one free deal. She then decides she doesn't want to be a mom and it was fun for a bit but she's over it.
People wonder why I don't fukk with anyone. I don't even pretend to because it's just cruel and selfish to build with someone then decide to quit when shyt gets hard. You don't get fukked once and quit because you're sore.
It's also not cool to bail on your team, especially if you're the captain. I don't quit on people once I've aligned myself with them. Even if I grow to not like them. Commitments are commitments and feelings change. Unfortunately people often forget that you can grow to like someone again. It's about perception and appreciating growth.
Me and E have changed a lot. We're different people than we were ten years ago. Completely different. And we're still friends. We grew together, we stuck together, and we are together. We've had some hard conversations over the years but that is why we're still together.
There's no resentment because we communicate. We don't get crazy with each other we just talk. We're so different people don't know we're friends. Lol its hilarious. Shout out to E, she's the shyt. Shout out to me, I'm the captain.
My kids used to tell me I'm the only adult who listens to them when they speak. Poor communication can lead to millions of people dying. It doesn't take any money or high intelligence to communicate well. People just gotta listen, ask questions, and be honest.
Getting someone to be honest about how they feel or genuinely care about the feelings of someone else is impossible. I cannot make someone care.
