If God tried to give me the grace to help my woman get ready to go meet a side nikka
"you cant give me grace!"
You would think God would give her the strength or w/e to leave the marriage/situation instead of "grace" to iron his clothes to go meet the side chick
"Once I knew who I was" = She would rather have a piece of a man, than to look for a better situation. She probably also liked the perks of being married to that specific person. The lifestyle that allowed her, being the "first lady" and stuff like that.