and I honestly could care less. I'll be deadass honest...I haven't gotten laid since July of 2012. Before that? 2011. Before then, September of 2008...the last time I was even in a relationship (not even afraid to put those details out there either and I don't care what anybody thinks anyways. I don't value my worth in society based on how many women I have sex with...and that's another thing I find troubling. The fact that this is which puts more stress on men than women to "get some" or else be seen as some impotent loser who just can't pull women).
I'm just honestly so f*cking sick and tired of this online-dating-social-media-hyper-superficial-oversexed-HD-porn-generation of people and it's made even approaching a woman for the time of day a hassle and half. It's like the double standards I see when it comes to women and how the act around someone their interested in as supposed they aren't. I could say something like "hey girl...I wanna pick you up and throw you in a trash can" and they would get mad but if a guy she was attracted to said the same exact thing she would go crazy for it! It sucks when you're a man like myself who's never really been high on the visibility or attractiveness level to the opposite sex. I just got sick and tired of watching all of these other dudes meet women and have girlfriends all the time and I can't so much as get a phone number from a woman or initiate a basic conversation without her saying "I have a boyfriend".
I don't care anymore. Just all of the hassle it takes to even have a date with a woman seems moot at this point and I'd rather work on myself and get this goddamn paper. It seems like a chick don't even wanna give me the digits...or the facebook/instagram/whatever (SMH at this) if I don't have some sort of income, if I'm not making a substantial amount of money, living some sort of steady professional based lifestyle (when the job market is terrible and jobs are hard to come by) or look like one of these toasty boy ass men that these women blog on their tumblrs about. The thing that's frustrating is how hard I've tried working just getting to that point. Sometimes, I even wonder if some of these women even like these guys or just what they can do for them.
My whole life story with women is and has: women like me...but just not enough to entertain the idea of getting into any sort of relationship with me...or to be seen in public with me...or to hang out with me without the company of other people. Therefore I just don't even feel inclined to go in any of those directions. They'll give other men a hug and a kiss on the cheek but they'll just shake my hand.
Call me old, bitter, defeatist, say I've made this thread before, 1 star this thread, or call it whiney or whatever...but it doesn't matter anymore to me. I wouldn't even entertain being in a relationship either (if i did get into one, probably not happening anytime soon) because it's just going to end with us breaking up anyways so I might as well just fap and call it day (even though that doesn't even seem appealing anymore either). Sex is a pretty low priority for me nowadays.
Oh, and I don't care to take anybody's advice or tips either cause seriously I DON"T CARE! I'm a grown ass man and I make my own decision and moves.
OP, obviously you DO care and that is very evident, not saying that as a diss or to clown btw. You need to focus on validating yourself without looking for outside approval, male or female. shyt, you should have made this post in the 'quick gems' thread because we talk about self improvement all the time and always reiterate the point that happiness comes from within and doesn't depend on how much female attention you think you should have. The things you dwell on and the vibe you give off always manifest in your life. If you're not happy with yourself, that will show and people will treat you accordingly. When you work on that, all that other stuff will flow into your life without you even trying.
