*L*E*G*A*C*Y*
Done.
I really don't know where to go and what to do if I did. I just don't and can't see myself anywhere else. I wasn't happy in Pittsburgh, I spent the better part of 10 years trying to move to New York and now it just seems like having trouble finding work is making it seem like it's not even worth it. It makes it seem like I wasted my life trying to get this degree. Which sucks and has been pissing me off because I moved to New York to actually be more around other Nigerians, West Indians, and black folks and I thought there would be more opportunities here for me in general but it just feels like there aren't any opportunities for someone like me here. I've had interviews everywhere from nice entry level corporate positions to restaurants and nothing has come up.
shyt, I've been kind of just angry and stuff...thinking that there's nothing for me here and that no one here wants to give me a chance. I just wanted something better for myself dammit! To not be a loser, to not be living with my parents at almost 30 and didn't want to be wasting my talent and intelligence pissing away in shyttsburgh. Now my roommates are getting on my nerves about finding work. They literally think that all I do is nothing and that I'm not trying to work. I literally almost blew up my roommates face telling him that I've had interview after interview and no one wants to hire me. They don't get it so I don't even want to talk to them about it cause there's no point. I'm starting to actually hate it here because I have barely any money from time to time and I've been searching everywhere for work for months. Whereas they can lose and find a job in two weeks. F*ck this shyt...
shyt, I've been kind of just angry and stuff...thinking that there's nothing for me here and that no one here wants to give me a chance. I just wanted something better for myself dammit! To not be a loser, to not be living with my parents at almost 30 and didn't want to be wasting my talent and intelligence pissing away in shyttsburgh. Now my roommates are getting on my nerves about finding work. They literally think that all I do is nothing and that I'm not trying to work. I literally almost blew up my roommates face telling him that I've had interview after interview and no one wants to hire me. They don't get it so I don't even want to talk to them about it cause there's no point. I'm starting to actually hate it here because I have barely any money from time to time and I've been searching everywhere for work for months. Whereas they can lose and find a job in two weeks. F*ck this shyt...
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