I take anti depressants. Your brain is not producing something or is producing too much. Look if you want to get better you need to figure out either A. Some alternative medicine which isn't exact . Or B clinical help. You are going to end up destroying yourself. So you have a choice. Which is going to be?Don’t bring up beliefs. That isn’t the topic and don’t be hostile to your brother. You were kind enough to be concerned no need to make all these assumptions. Anti depressants sound scary, I want to be happy. Trust me I’m not talking to any new women anytime soon.