First off, idk if your looking for gems on dealing with women or you’re here to vent. Just know that you won’t get sympathy over here
Women don’t hit who they respect. I haven’t been hit by a female since I was 14, that includes my mother. I don’t have to glass a girl for her to understand that I don’t play that. Maybe your build is wack and you need to goto the gym. You already confirmed that you get real angry in person and certain girls see that and view you as a toy. That won’t stop if you strike them. They don’t respect you, so at this point you have to distance yourself